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Dan's POV
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Phil and I were around 45 minutes into the live show when we decided to start answering some questions from Twitter.

After about 10 questions answered, we put our plan into action when Phil tweeted me asking a question.

"Ok, and now we have a question from AmazingPhil on Twitter." I say, laughing.

"Go on, then Dan. Read it."

"Ok. Phil asks: how good of a kisser are you?"

I look down at all the comments in the bottom section of You Now, people were absolutely freaking out.

I laugh and look over at Phil. "Hmm, I don't know Phil. How good of a kisser am I?" I ask, a hint of a smirk on my face.

"Well, I haven't kissed you in a while so I kind of forget. I should probably go ahead and kiss you right now just so we can give the fans a good, proper answer."

"Go on then." I say, blushing a bit since it's the first time we would have kissed on camera.

Phil leans in and kisses me softly for a flew seconds before he finally pulls away and we are left smiling.

We both look back at the screen. By now there were so many comments that I was sure You Now would break.

"Well," I say. "I think that's all the time we have as Phil and I have to go make dinner since we are absolutely starving. Goodbye Internet."

"Bye guys!" Phil pipes in before I turn the live stream off and shut the laptop.

"Well, I'm sure we have lots of explaining to do now." I say.

"We sure do. But let's worry about that tomorrow, that's when we'll film and post the video."

I smile at Phil. "I love you so much."

Phil smiles back at me. "I love you too. But I think what I would love more is if we could go eat something right now."

I chuckle. "You ruined the moment."

"I'm hungry!" Phil whines.

"Okay, okay. Fine lets go eat some food."

"Yay!" Phil cheers.

I roll my eyes. "Do you want to order pizza or make something here?"

Phil thinks about that for a second before deciding. "I think we should make something here, we haven't cooked together for a while."

"Then cooking it is!" I say.

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Once we decided on what to make and had all the ingredients out we started to put water to boil in a pot.

"I was actually really in the mood for pasta." Phil states.

I laugh. "Yup, you can never go wrong with chicken Alfredo linguini. It's delicious!" I say as I start putting the chicken in the pan to fry.

I start putting some spices in when I feel Phil wrap his hands around me.

"Phiiiiil." I complain. "I don't want to burn the chicken."

"Hmmm?" Phil hums as he starts kissing down my neck.

I gasp when he starts to suck on the base. I lean my head back on his chest as he starts nipping at my skin, leaving marks that we're going to be really visible for the video we were going to have to do tomorrow.

"P-Phil." I say. "You kn-know my neck is sensitive."

Phil reaches over me so that he can turn the stove off and we don't burn anything.

He starts sucking harder and flips me over so that my back is to the counter that was right beside the stove.

I lift his head and start kissing him forcefully, already noting my pants beginning to get tighter from the arousal I had because of Phil's neck sucking.

I press my body to Phil's and see him smirk a little when he realizes the problem I had with my pants.

He attaches his lips back to my neck and puts his hands on either side of my hips, grinding into me.

I whimper at the sudden friction and start to grind into him faster. Phil begins leaving red marks all over my collar bones and brings his right hand to where my jeans button is.

He pauses kissing my neck for a minute to look up at me, asking for permission to what he was about to do.

I nod, and urge him to continue.

He unbuttons my jeans and starts to pull down both my underwear and jeans at the same time.

I take in a sharp inhale of breath as I feel my member hit the cold air.

Phil starts to kneel down onto the ground until his mouth is centimetres away from my hard boner. He puts his hand around my dick and starts pumping, gradually increasing speed.

"Ph-hil! Please, I want you to suck me off!" I beg.

I see Phil smirk, but do as he's told as he takes my length in, and starts bobbing up and down.

I moan loudly and grip on to his hair so that it can keep me from thrusting deeper into him.

Phil slows down a bit and starts teasing my slit with his tongue.

"You fucker!" I moan.

He chuckles and i can feel the vibrations inside me, which is going to make me cum any second now.

Phil starts bobbing up and down even faster and I can feel the warm feeling at the bottom of my stomach.

"Phil! Phil I'm going to-" I didn't even get to finish my sentence before I released my load into Phil's mouth. He swallows it all and stands back up with a smirk on his face.

It takes a moment before I can collect myself again and start to pull my pants back up.

I look over at Phil and blush when I notice that he was staring at me.

"Uh, do you need me to do something about you now?" I ask.

He blushes and looks down. "I, uh, already came." He confesses which to I just smirk.

"Well, we should probably start to make the linguini now." I suggest, chuckling.

"I need to do something first." Phil says.
He leans in and kisses me softly this time. Our lips part and I melt into the kiss. Kissing Him felt like walking on clouds. Phil held me so close and with so much delicacy as if he thought I might break even though that wasn't how he was holding me a few moments ago. He was beautiful and I loved being this close to him, he was amazing to be around and gave off such positivity that made me feel like I was going to be alright.

I realized then, that as long as I had Phil by my side, I didn't need my blades. I had no use for them because I no longer felt like I was drowning underwater every single time I saw him. I no longer felt lonely inside because I could be in his arms now. With Phil, my world felt right again, and I didn't have to live in fear of not being able to hold on anymore, because Phil was my anchor, he was what would keep me going when I would find myself in times of despair. And I knew now, that he would never let me go.

I was finally at peace because I loved Phil, and I knew now, with the way that he held me, that he loved me too.

The End

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Eyyyyy!!! I finally finished!!! I hope you guys enjoyed that ;)

I actually wasn't planning to write any smut in this chapter but it kind of just happened 😂

It was supposed to be fluffy cooking... That didn't work out to well though!

Ok, wow, I can't believe I actually finished this, I'm actually proud that I did, I enjoyed writing this :)

If you guys for some reason actually like reading my stuff then check out a different story I'm currently writing called "When The Day Met The Night" it's phan as well!!

Thanks to anyone that has read, voted, commented I really appreciate it!!!

Ok, well thank you all, because without you I probably wouldn't have any motivation to keep writing. Ily all! Thank you for reading Secrets. This was actually my first ever posted PhanFic so yay!

I'm gonna shut up now because this is way longer than I planned it to be... :P

P.S. This chapter was written in class 😂 ik, ik, I'm a sinner, oh well. French and science class are boring anyways