I know I shouldn't be 'whining' about my ex but this is just ridiculous, I lay awake sometimes at night, just thinking about her

I'm scared to publish my books, draw something, etc because of her

Why am I so scared of her?

She's super sweet and funny

She's not what I think about her

I wanna talk to her about this but I don't have the guts

Why am I so scared of her? Just talk to her

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My dad told me that his mom's side of the family suffered from mental health

And I was wondering, do I have it too? Is that why people made fun of me?

It's hard for me to make friends at my school because of my stuttering problem

And when I open up to someone, they say, oh you talk

The main reason why I keep quiet is because of my stuttering problem

I want to talk to someone(in irl) but it's hard for people to understand me, and I hate it

I just want to talk like a normal person, behave like a normal person, eat like a normal person, act like a normal person, look like a normal person

I hate it. I hate being so alone and lost. I just want to talk to someone but I don't know who's all out there for me