̶ ̶ xix. DROWN ME IN INFATUATION. 

i want to know what it sounds like when you say i love you.

the warmth you give in the spaces of my stubby fingers, the smile that grows on my face the closer you get to me, the way the sun shines on you and the moon leaving perfect shadows of us behind. how you make my heart jump as you graze my thigh, the taste of you in the back of my throat even after i brush my teeth, the tracing of lines in my palms that tickle me, but i don't pull away because i love the feeling it gives me. the late night talks with your favorite movie humming in the background, fits of laughter at inside jokes only we can comprehend, carefully sprinkling the star dust back into your eyes after your tears tried to take them away. finding new meanings to love songs while we dance and fall in love even more through the bathroom mirror. watching you put your soul into something so passionately from the sidelines, cheering you on every step of the way. the quick kisses moments before you leave me for the day, the long kisses, the butterfly kisses- when your so close to me that our lips brush and we smile, we smile so big and widely that the world coos in awe. and we stay like this, our feet cold on the tiled floor of the kitchen, swaying to nothing but our breathing, we are in love. hopelessly and reckless, we hold each other's hearts in our hands and tuck them close the moment we say goodnight.

what i would give to know what
your love feels like.

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dedicated to h.v.c
a boy who over time has kept my heart

from dying out, someone who holds it
in his hands and doesn't even know.