×Perrie×

"Perrrieee!"I hear Zayn shout from the living room."Yeah?"I shout back."Jade is here to see you."He says.As I enter the living room,Jade greets me with a hug,"I missed ya."She says and I repeat her words.I glance up at Zayn who is looking at us,fire inside his eyes.As we break apart,he quickly comes and kisses me."What was that for?"I ask."Nothing."He replies.Jade smiles at us but it's not a genuine one,it's a forced one."I'm going to sleep."Zayn announces before pecking me on the cheek and giving Jade a quick hug.

Zayn goes to sleep giving us girls more time to gossip and catch up onto the things cause we just had a time off after we released the Get Weird album and was going to practice the get weird tour.I honestly missed Jade the most because we were the most closest in the group and she was kinda like more closer to me than Jesy and LeighAnne.We spend some time talking then watched the top released movies and all,even FaceTimed the other two bebs.Jade takes a quick selfie with me,before posting it on instagram with the caption,"Hanging around with @perrieeele,she is bae♡"

I laugh for no reason and she joins.That is why I'm more closer to her,she is as crazy as I am but this seems like favouring and so I take back my sentence,all the girls are as crazy as I am and they accept me for who I am."Hey guys."Zayn yawns,entering the room."Perrie,we need to talk."Zayn says as his gaze switched towards me and Jade cuddling while The Notebook is on."Okay."I say confused as I follow Zayn into the other room.

"Stop pretending."

"What?"I ask."Stop pretending that you're in love with me when you clearly aren't."He snaps."What Zayn?You think I'm not in love with you?"I ask,clearly hurt."Yeah you aren't cause I see you cuddling with,Hugging and being affectionate with jade here."He says."You're jealous with every person I hang out with and Jade is my best friend for God's sake!"I throw my arms up in the air,he sighs in defeat."I'm sorry,I'm jealous because you're mine."He face palms."This isn't going to work if it stays like this."I sigh.

His face is a mixtureof hurt,anger and shock."I knew it."He says."I knew you were in love with someone else,you never loved me."He sneers."Zayn,I did-"I am cut of by zayn."Give me back the ring,I will give it to someone worth it."His words reach into my sould and pull it out.Tears start to build up in my eyes,as I pull of that ring.He's not worth the tears,he's not worth the tears,I keep telling myself but the tears are already pouring out like rain and they can't stop.

Zayn looks at me one last time before leaving the room,no tears,no nothings.Jade enters the room and hugs me,what i needed the most.I cry onto her shoulder for a long time."He left me."I whisper to her."I know,don't cry Perrie,he's not worth the tears."She tries to comfort me."He said he would stay forever,he left me alone,he took the ring,he said he will give the ring to someone worth it."I cry as I speak."Look at me Perrie."She pulls up my face,I look at her.

"He's not worth it,he's not worth the tears.Now he doesn't understand how much an amazing girl you are,you don't need it anyways.You are better of without him,he doesn't know who you are the real you,the one who is a beautiful,happy girl,my best friend doesn't cry,she's always happy and now where's that smile?"She says as I weakly smile."There's the smile,now get up,we're going somewhere."She says."Where?"I ask."Just C'mon."She says."I just had a breakup and you're taking me somewhere."I state the obvious."Yeah and that's why we're going out."She says making me laugh a bit.

She smiles back at me as shetands up to go towards the door."Give me some time to get ready at least."I say."I must be looking so ugly,all the mascara ruined and I mu-"I start to blabber but am cut of by Jade."You look beautiful and perfect,C'mon let's go."She takes my hand and grabs me towards the door."Ugh okay Thirlwall,if people stare at me for looking so hideous,you're going to die."I warn her."Yeah,no one will look at you like that."She says."But I look so-"I start but Jade kisses me on the cheek."Now stop,I'm getting the car."She says,going towards the garage.I rub my hand over my cheek,smiling slightly more like blushing, why'd she kiss me? But Then I remember that it could be just a best friend gesture and I shouldn't think of my best friend like that.

Jade pulls into the driveway,honking and pulling me out of my thoughts,I quickly go and sit in the passenger seat."Can you at least tell where we are going?"I ask,trying to forget the moments that just took place a minute ago."Disneyland!"She says and I squeal."Seriously?!"I ask and she nods."Omg you're the best!"I give her a quick peck on the cheek for revenge and she blushes lightly.I ignore that and squeal,she knows Disneyland is my favorite place,after the beach but still it is one of my favorites.

After a half and hour, or so, of driving, we pull up into the parking lot of Disneyland."I'm so excited!"I tell Jade as we take our tickets and enter it."Where do you wanna go first?"She asks."How about the Rollercoaster?"she asks and I shake my head."I don't like Rollercoastes."I say."I know but I'll be with ya."She says and I somehow say yes.We take the tickets from the counter,before rushing to sit in one pf the front seats of the Rollercoaster.The ride begins with us moving up until we reach the slope and from there,it goes down.I grab Jade's arms and scream as loudly as I could,of course Jade did the same.After the ride,Jade takes a break while I go on the teacups ride,I know it's for kids but whatever,who cares.

Everytime the ride comes towards Jade's side,she is staring at me and waves everytime."This one was so fun!"I say to Jade."Yeah I saw."She says,mimicking that strange accent she does.I laugh as she joins,"Getting ice cream cones,which flavour?"She asks me."Nutella brown chocolate."I answer and she goes towards the stall.After a few minutes she returns with two big cones,and hands me the chocolate one."Lets go to the ferris wheel."Jade suggests."Wouldn't our ice cream fall down?"I ask."Its the ferris wheel perrie."She laughs."Okay,let's go."I say while we make our way to the ticket counter.

"Hello pretty girl,what are you doing tonight?Wanna get some action tonight?"A guy catcalls at me,"Hey,you!"Jade points out."Why you catcalling my girl,you think it's funny.Well she doesn't want the action so just fuck off!"Jade curses at the guy,making him cringe and swiftly go away."Thanks for that."I say."You're welcomed as always."She smiles at me before getting the tickets.We step into one of the carts and sit on different sides because I was scared it would flip over if it becomes unbalanced.As the ferris wheel reaches the top,the view of the sun setting is beautiful and so majestic.

The silence spreads between us as we stare at the sunset."Isn't it beautiful?"I ask and she nods."But I know someone more beautiful than it."She adds."Who?"I ask.

"You,Pez."

I blush,looking down.The cart starts to go down but suddenly stops with a bolt.We look down to see a few people standing there shouting at us,"Don't Move!"I look at Jade terrified of what is going to happen next. We waited for like an hour before the ride got fixed and then went home cause we were tired."Today was so much fun!"I say as jade smiles."Thanks."I hug her,she looks taken back but wraps her arms around me.This was a genuine hug,that made everyone's day better and it surely did to mine.

We pull away as she smiles brightly.Her phone buzzes as her smile turns into a frown, "What happened?"I ask the girl,she shakes her head and put her phone in her bag."Nothing,just have to go."She smiles at me,awkwardly."Okay,see you tomorrow."I say,waving her as she bid me goodbye as well."Well,that was awkward."I say to myself after going to my room.I check my phone to see a message from the management that we have a show tomorrow and another from the girls group chat that wished me well for the breakup.

I honestly hated Zayn for leaving me alone,for leaving me alone after all the years we have spend together and how much memories have we made and I hate him for leaving those memories with me so I can be hurt by just remembering them,that is my problem; I keep rewinding those moments though I shouldn't and it's bad for me,it wouldn't matter him anyways.As I look at myself in the mirror,I ask myself, Wasn't I good enough?Didn't I give all it takes to him?I know I am not perfect but I tried to be, I tried to be because of him and him only and see what did I get from this love,a heartbreak nothing more.

Tears started to prickle in my eyes as I thought of this and I am confused,hurt and broken.HE hurt me deeply and truly.I wasn't ready to let him go,he promised he would stay forever but he didn't fulfill it.Zayn Malik owned my heart a couple of years ago,but he shattered it with a few words.

It feels like my mind is having a war because there are two sides; one which said he was't worth it and the other one who said I didn't give him enough.

Which one would I agree with?

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Daaammmnnnnnnnn,Why'd I say that?

Okay nevermind,forget that.

This is my new book,no I won't delete this one,I promise because I have a whole book planned and this one is going to be a good one.

Hope you enjoyed the first one,short yeah I know,I'll write long ones soon.Chapters will be published on Wednesdays,and sundays okay?

See ya on sunday,and okay,Zayn is a big part of this story.

Bye lovelies♡

Love you guys!