It hits me like a ton of bricks whenever your name enters my mind the painful memories that i am left with remind me of my constant despair no other could quite fix things like you could and to realize this hole in my heart throbs at the small things you used to do for me.... but it reminds me of how my stupidity hurt you.... how my absence ruined you because i didn't work on something I'd been trying to fix....

This pain in my chest where you lived this hurt these cuts came after you left and pushed me out and i wish i appreciated you more when i knew i was yours .... as much as i wanted to grow with you... you cut your roots and uplifted from our soil and here i lie in this bed of tears on a pillow where your head use to be the house we shared such roaring life is nothing but an ocean of utter despair .... my body throbbing for your touch reminds me of how wild our lust ran.

My loyalty wasn't enough for you.... for my absence was a empty seat at the table of a broken frame i wanted you more than anything this reminder hurts me everyday I'm without you