Have you ever felt it ?
The sense of chaos in your head— even though in reality all is perfectly depicted and crystal clear.
But here you are dreading and awfully confused.
Dreading failing. Unfulfilling the plans you painted so well. Staining the future you've done your best to keep clean.
Dreading this indescribable worrisome feeling that's beating you down and soaking you with second-thoughts and reckless doubts.

Everything's a mess , my life is running fast and I'm knee deep in mud ; stuck and haplessly not able to do anything about it.
Everything is okay but I can't help but feel like each piece of me is thrown far away from the other.
I can't help but feel like I'm losing control and failing. Falling. Drowning.
It's all just ..a mess.                     

- A n o n y m o u s // 14.8.18