I woke up the next morning with a panic-

I FORGOT TO FUCKING BUY HIM A CAKE ARE YOU SHETTING ME SENA OMG WTF WTF.

I scavenged for my phone to check the time, it was only 9.43am.
Which is ridiculously early for me by the way. I groaned as I got up and went to the bathroom to pee and wash myself.
Only 3 days, only 3 days until BTS go on tour.

I won't be joining them on their Asia tour, but I need to fly out and meet them when they start with the USA and the Europe tour.

So, I was going to be alone for a good 2 weeks almost.
Which suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked. /-.-/ OTL

There was a really good dessert (bakery) place I knew of, and that's where I was going to get Jimin's belated birthday cake- sorry, cupcake. I'm getting him a cupcake- I'm getting his birthday cupcake from there.
It was gonna be all cute, a little cupcake with sweet lemon icing and a little candle in the center.

I got dressed and made my way to the bakery, it wasn't too far so I just walked. I was happy because giving him the cupcake would give me another excuse to see him again- I just wanted to see him as much as I could before he left for the tour.
But at the same time I knew how difficult it would be to actually spend time with him considering how busy he would be before any tour- let alone this one.

I found myself frowning as walked towards the bakery's entrance.

As soon as I stepped in the smell of freshly baked bread filled the air, I took a deep breath in, I could almost taste it. I looked around the cases, a section for the savoury pastries, the breads, the cakes and the desserts.
I paused for a moment when I saw a small golden-brown sponge cake, with flecks of clear sprinkles of sugar on its pale yellow icing.

I was definitely getting that.
Screw the cupcakes.

After buying the Lemon cake (and two Red velvet cupcakes- for uh.. research purposes) I left the store, excited.

I got back home and messaged Jimin-
Hey, I know you're busy, but if you're up, can you quickly stop by for a minute?

Almost immediately he replied with-
Yeah, sure, but make it quick, I need to go to a meeting with PDnim in 15 minutes :(

I forced a smile and responded
That's cool, I only need to see you for a minute.

I rushed to the kitchen and shimmied in a couple candles into the icing of the cake and one into one of the Red Velvet cupcakes.

Before I knew it there was a soft knock on the door, I took a deep breath and inched towards the sound.

I opened the door to find Jimin, all scruffy, with dark bags under his eyes and messy unkempt hair. He softly smiled through his exhaustion-
"Hey." He said, "I'm sorry, I'm a mess, I've been up since 5am, we've been practicing a few last minute changes to our set list..." He dozed off for a moment."You called me over for something?" He asked, a little more eager this time.

"Uhh yeah, just come in for a second" I gestured for him to come in.He slowly and sloppily came in, but still smiling.

"Here just sit down for a moment." I nodded as I guided him to the sofa as I held him by his shoulders.

I quickly made my way to the kitchen- then very slowly brought over the cake, trying to steady the flames from dancing on the tips of the candles.
I cleared my throat and attempted to sing, "Happy belated birthday to you, happy belated birthday to you, happy belated birthday to dear Chimchim- Happy birthday to you!"
He was smiling by the time I'd reached him.

I smiled at him smiling.

He blew out the candles. I watched his lips form a ring as they sort of 'puckered' out to blow the candles out , gosh his lips looked great.

Like 10/10. I approve 130%.

"What did you wish for?" I excitedly asked as I sat down next to him.
I leaned in closer, as if I were preparing to get in on some juicy gossip.

"I can't tell you, it won't come true." He said as he ruffled his hair.
"Fine... But let me know if it comes true, okay?" I pouted in disappointment.

I didn't really expect him to tell me, but I still wanted to know.
And even now, I still want to know.

I cut him a small slice and handed it to him.
"Lemon?" He asked, smiling as he pointed at the cake.
I proudly nodded.
"I looooove lemon cake! How did you know? What a lucky guess!" He yelled before digging in.
I know Jimin, I know you love lemon cake, trust me, I KNOW.

"I also got you a small Red Velvet cupcake, to eat on the way, I thought you could take the cake upstairs for later..."
He continued enjoying himself as he ate.

I chuckled a little before turning to face him.
"I'm sorry that you have to work so hard. You look so exhausted..." I said in a much sadder tone.

At first I hesitated, but eventually I reached my hand up towards him and brushed his hair back- the strands brushing through the gaps between my fingers.
"You must be so tired, you had like- what? 3 hours of sleep... We were talking until really late after you got back." I stopped playing with his hair.

"Are you going to be okay? Please promise me you'll take care of yourself-"

"Why'd you stop?" He interrupted in a tired, low voice- he almost sounded mildly irritated.

"What?"

"It felt nice, play with my hair." He calmly demanded as he closed his eyes and leaned on me.

Well, IF YOU INSIST, WHO AM I TO COME BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR NEED TO HAVE YOUR HAIR PLAYED WITH OFCOURSE I'LL PLAY WITH YOUR HAIR.

Of course Jimin, I'll play with your hair.

I glanced at his face, he was smiling and his eyes were still softy shut.
Yes. 'Softly' shut; his eyelids weren't scrunched up- he didn't look distressed.
His eyelids lay shut like soft petals- his whole face looked content.
You'd think he was actually fast asleep.

To be fair, he very well could've been.

I took a deep breath and quietly continued, "As I was saying, please just take care of yourself." I rolled a lock of his hair back and forth between my thumb and index finger, "Just make sure you get as much sleep as you can, and eat loads- don't you dare f- don't diet. Just please don't diet, and stop working out so much, you need to save energy. Ok?"

I waited for a response but all I could hear was him softly breathing.

"Okay?" I whispered while staring at his face, looking for a sign of a response.

Nothing.

I sighed to myself.

Well, he was sleeping again, and I did what I always do when he falls asleep here- I stared at him.
Which seems creepy, I know, but when he's asleep I can admire his face without getting nervous, because I know he isn't looking back at me.

Completely amused, I continued playing with his hair.

Every time, every time without fail, his beauty actually takes my breath away.
I really can't explain how captivating he is, seeing him infront of you- seeing him in the flesh, he's so much more amazing, and it's overwhelming- knowing that someone so beautiful actually exists.

He's real.

I slowly ran my index finger along the side of his jawline and slowly smiled to myself as I thought "jfc his skin is so smooth."

He said he had a meeting to be at, and that meant that I had to wake him up.
I really didn't want to disturb his rest, but I also didn't want him to get into trouble.

"Jimin..." I called as I poked his cheeks.
His face twitched a little.
"Chimchim~" I sang his name as I mushed his cheeks together.
I was thoroughly enjoying touching his face.
"Mhhhmmm?" He finally responded- eyebrows raised, eyes still shut.

"Jimin you said you had a meeting to go to." I quietly reminded him.
He began fake sulking.
"I do." He frowned and got up.
"Let's do this again, okay?" He said as he smiled at me, his eyes turning into horizontal lines.
"Okay, if you insist~" I nodded.

I packaged his birthday cake and gave it to him along with the cupcake.
We hugged eachother goodbye, and that was that.

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As much as I hated it, that was the last time I saw him before I joined their tour in the USA.
His schedule was packed for the last 3 days and didn't want him spending energy on me- I wanted him to get as much rest as he could.

Jimin 06:23-
I'm sorry I couldn't stop by before we left. I had barely finished packing and I had to sort out the costumes we were taking since a few things went missing and the coordi noonas were freaking out.

You woke up early to see me off didn't you? I'm sorry.

Sena 06:25-
It's okay, I'll go back to sleep soon anyway. Is it okay if we just message eachother until you check-in?

Jimin 06:25-
Sure. My flight is at 08:30 and we won't be checking in for at least another half hour.

Sena 06:26-
You know, I'm going to miss you.

Jimin 06:27-
Yeah, I do :P

Jimin 06:28-
But I'll miss you more.

Sena 06:34-
You know, separation is like a wind, it'll extinguish small flames, but feed the large ones.

Jimin 06:35-
Ooo look at you, all poetic and romantic. What a cutie.

Jimin 06:35-
... So we're a flame now?

Sena 06:36-
I didn't say that.

Jimin 06:37-
So we're not a flame?

Sena 06:40-
I didn't say that either.

Jimin 06:44-
I'm gonna do it, you asked for it.

Sena 06:44-
No Jimin don't. stop pls. Don't do it.

Jimin 06:45-
Sorry... *smirks*

Sena 06:45-
You know what? It doesn't work over text, sorry.

Jimin 06:47-
Yes it does, don't lie. You're blushing.

Sena 06:47-
No I'm not.

I walked over to the toilet to pee again, I anxiously stared at my phone as I waited for a reply.
I waited 1 minute, 2 minutes, 5 minutes. Nothing. I bit my lip in the suspense.

I gave in but,
He messaged me just as I was about to message him.

Jimin 06:56-
Sorry, Tae was being nosy and he wouldn't leave me and my phone alone, so I couldn't message you.
We're about to check in now, and I don't think I'll be able to message you- I'll let you know when I land okay?

Sena 06:56-
Yeah, that's okay. Have a safe flight. Please be careful.
Take care, bye x

Jimin 06:56-
See you soon sweetie xx

And then it was two weeks, two sad and lonely weeks.
Well, I'm exaggerating. I spent quite a bit of time with Sariah, Lisa, Sungra and Hana.
Almost. I almost told them about Jimin.

I did think about him often, and I did follow his whereabouts and his performances from fansites and live streams. I felt like a fangirl again, ah, my youth.

We did message each other every other day, just to check in, but I told him to focus on his work- since we'd be seeing eachother soon anyway.

Time passed, it was quick but it wasn't exactly 'painless'.
Seeing him interact with fans did make me jealous, but I guess that couldn't be helped.
I also got a call from my mum, and I found out that I had to fly to Turkey to sort out a few documents under my name and to sign off a few things, and I told her I'd take care of it as soon as the tour was over.

Soon it was time for me to fly out to New York to meet up with Bangtan and their crew.
I was excited and nervous and scared and anxious, I had 3 other staff members coming along with me.

I landed in the evening, at 8pm. After a 14 hour long flight, I was EXHAUSTED.
We made our way straight to the hotel that BTS and the Bighit crew were staying at, I don't remember the name of the hotel but it was 4 stars which isn't bad tbh.

I was so so excited to see him again.

Upon arrival I had a meeting with the manager, quickly letting me know the final details, we had an interview and fanmeet tomorrow, and then a live Vapp show which I'd be a translating MC since the show was especially for the USA fans, and the day after that we'll have a concert.

I nodded in response to everything I was told, then, I kindly asked permission to say hello to the boys, and thank god he said "Sure, they're still awake."

They were sharing out 3 rooms for them, as per usual, they put the maknaes in one room, and Jin and Yoongi in another, and Namjoon and Hosoek in the last.

I started from the first room and made my way down, I greeted everyone, they were happy to see me and I was happy to see them.

[A/N LOLOLOL SORRY I JUST TRIED TO DRINK FROM A CLOSED BOTTLE OF WATER WOWOWOW, LAST DAY OF FASTING TOMORROW]

Of course seeing everyone else was great but I was distracted, I was eager to get to the last door- to the room that Jimin was staying in.

As soon as I knocked on the door, Jungkook answered, he was in his pyjamas.
"Noona! You're here! Guys guys, Sena noona is here!" He said as he called over Tae and Jimin.

In my head I saw him walk up to me in slow motion, I saw him hold back from hugging me in slow motion too, at that moment, I wished Jungkook and Taehyung knew.
Jimin casually greeted me, and I nodded back at him.

"Hey guys!" I said while grinning, "How's the tour been?" I asked, while looking around the room.
"It's been good, but it's going to be so much more fun now that you're here too :D" Taehyung exclaimed as he nudged my shoulder.

"You guys should be tired, go to sleep okay?" I tried to say in a sympathetic tone.
"Noooo we're fine!" Kookie said.
"Okay, let me rephrase, I'm exhausted from my flight and I'm weak, can I sleep?" I said with a cheesy grin across my face.

"Aw, okay :( rest well, see you tomorrow morning then!" Tae enthusiasticated.

I made eye contact and nodded goodbye to the three boys- my gaze lingering on Jimin slightly longer than anyone else.

Before I even made it to my door I got a message-

Jimin- 9:49
I know you're tired, but I missed you.

Meet me at the rooftop please ^^

A/N AH AH IM 3 HOURS LATE AND I RUSHED TO FINISH THIS CHAP BECAUSE MY BROTHER IS GONNA COME IN BECAUSE SUHOOR IS ALMOST OVER AH AH I DIDN'T GET AS MUCH AS I WANTED IN IM SORRY AND I'LL PROBABLY GO BACK AND EDIT AND ADD A FEW SENTENCES, EXCUSE MY ERRORS I HAVEN'T PROOF READ (I FEEL LIKE THAT'S A GIVEN BY NOW)

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ALSO LAST DAY OF FASTING!!! GUYS WE MADE ITTT
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