it barely even seems like effort

im not really trying am i

i think i gave it up ages ago

and hey she did too

and now its gone

forever destroyed

lie a cracked bone

strongest broken by itself

and ruining my mental health

and now here i sit

forever wondering

did i do something wrong

could i have stopped it

or was it locked in the grid

being left alone 

its really pure torture

where nobody seems to see

that you're really just screaming

all while you keep running

never quite loving

and slowly breaking