OCTOBER 2, 1996

The days are passing oh so quickly. Castletown, no matter what the date is, is a place that is so much more than just my home town. I belong here. My heart and soul, my very life belongs to this place. There may be those of you who may be wanting to tell me to get the hell out of here, save myself from what is to come but I can't, it's not that easy, though you may tell me that it is. This place calls to me. No matter what the coming days, weeks, and months have in store for me, this is where I belong, and this is where I will stay.

So, if I won't leave the town then maybe I can leave the time, vacate the timeline I am residing in. Think about it. If I am not here on October 30, 1996, then I cannot commit murder. If I am not around to face February 1, 1997, then I cannot die. I know I will be around on February 1, 1997, in a way as I will be born that day but if I can somehow travel back to 2016 before I can experience the festivities of Halloween 1996 as a nineteen-year-old, then things will change, right?

What will change though? Will there still be a nephew and niece if I manage to pull off something as crazy as time travel? I can't see why they would no longer exist but altering anything within this circle that is my life could possibly alter everything, couldn't it?

I know my sister has told me that I have not returned home before she travels back in time. She goes to the past from some point in April of 2017. If my sister, my brother and myself too, have all travelled to the past then who says travelling forward is impossible. I may go missing from April 2016 but what if I find my way to some other point in time?

I'm talking crazy here, but there has to be a way for me not to commit murder and then there has to be a way for me not to die on my day of birth. One sure way of getting to the future quicker than just living it day by day is to travel at the light of speed. There is nothing at my disposal, nothing I can use to accomplish such a thing.

There must be something. Alright, say I make it to the future or to the time that should be my proper present, what then? Do my siblings move forward from here, like reach 2016 the old fashion way? Will I find them aged? Will I find my nephew and niece at a time where they are older than what I am now?

This all is me just thinking out loud. It is not like I could just get into a car and drive into the future. Anyhow, enough of me panicking, I won't lose it just yet. Few weeks to go yet, four to be precise until Halloween comes round. There still is the brother to look after in the here and now. He really is struggling with what happened to him.

How does this version of my brother turn out in 2016? Is he even still around in 2016? If I knew what I know now while I was still in 2016 then I could go looking for a few things. Too late for that now, I have mentioned before about the possibility of leaving cookies for myself to find in 2016 but no point of doing that now, is there? I already know I won't find them. For if I do find them then things will change. Things must change ... hey; this might be my way back.

Having spent the time I have had in 2016, I know I do not find any trail that I leave in 1996 so if I can force myself into finding something than there will have to be some sort of ripple effect. I am no time mechanic, but this can work, it must work.

Thing is, what do I leave for myself? How do I ensure that I find it in 2016? Right, I have plenty to think about now. I can do this, yeah, I can do this.

OCTOBER 5, 1996

Have I told you the names of my nephew and niece? No, I guess I haven't. Their names are Jonas and Jenna. Jonas and Jenna, I really like those names. They are a little out there but not by a whole lot, the names that is and not the kids. I am however, a little worried for Jonas at the moment. Spending some of my very limited time with my sister at her home today, Jonas arrived there being somewhat within himself, something not himself from what I gather from observations when he is around me.

There could be a number of reasons for this of course, though I can't help but think that this Alvin Morris has got to him in some way or another. My nephew is thirteen so it is likely that he is in the age range that Morris may like. Thoughts like this boils my blood. The more I think of what he is, the more I seriously want to hurt him. Now of course Castletown is a big place whether that be 1996 or 2016 so the chances that this Morris senior guy got to Jonas in some way, or another, has to be slim, right? Like I mean it could happen, but I can't think that way. I might be over-reacting, truly hope I am.

I haven't been around long enough, nor do I know Jonas well enough for him to tell me anything, not that he probably would tell me anything anyway, but still, something is wrong. Hopefully nothing along the lines of what is going through my head is in anyway happening to my nephew. He did more or less stay in his room the whole time I was at my sister's place.

Anyway, there is a university in town with which I would have liked to attend. Well, I guess in a way I can say that I have now though not quite in the way I had imagined. The university is as old as the town itself, and it does have a more than decent reputation.

First of all, having mentioned this university, I do not want to come across as being in any way smart or intelligent as I am anything but, though back in 2016 I had plans. I won't bore you with details to those plans as it may be safe to say they will never happen. What I can tell you is that I did attend an open lecture at the university today and it was a lecture on 'space and time' no less.

I approached the professor who gave the lecture once that lecture had come to an end. I introduced myself and told this professor that I am doing a thesis on the subject. I then proceeded to ask him as to if there were any way I could discuss the subject with him further. Surprisingly he agreed to a fifteen-minute meeting and this meeting will take place tomorrow, all going well.

You may be able to guess as to what I would like to discuss with him. I'll attempt to put my questions to him as being 'in theory' so hopefully we can have an honest discussion. As it is, that is for tomorrow. For what is left of today, I am gonna go wandering a bit. It is nice outside right now, my fondness for walking is going a long way to keeping me calm, it is keeping me sane.

With what I have organized for tomorrow, I might have a slight chance of having things go my way as in finding a working theory to move forward somehow. I won't hold out though, but at least I can walk this evening with a sense of hope. You may think I am being a little naïve, but I need to have hope, otherwise ... well you get the idea.

There is a cinema complex here in Castletown, it was bought out in 2010 and is run by a different company in 2016 to what runs it today. This whole ... time travel thing ... really could be a good thing if it weren't for how things are to work out and this may not be the best time to go see a film but what the hell, right? I hear there is a special showing of the HELLRAISER BLOODLINE movie. Sure, why not? May as well do a little something for me ... so until the next entry.