More sexual content. Plus sexual abuse. Read at own risk! I do not want to trigger anyone so please read with caution. Please do not read if sexual abuse disturbs you!!

Felicity's POV

...The continuation.

Warren continues to pump his fingers into me pounding them in a rough manner that has me shivering in need but too soon pulls his fingers out, and has me sit up. He goes to the back of my dress and unclips the top part, he then unzips the zipper that is under my arm on my right side.

The front of the dress hangs lose and he moves his hands to push the material off my shoulders, he pulls it down to my breasts. He takes his finger into his mouth wetting it and skims the skin of my breast just above my bra.

As my eyes close he moves his left hand around to my back to unclasp my bra. I help him remove it and I feel him pull me towards him so my back is now against the surface of the mattress. "Warren, please dont tease me", I say as I feel him take my right nipple into his mouth. He licks and nips, and swirls his tongue around as I moan, he then transfers his attention to my other breast. He brings his left hand up needing and pinching my nipple lightly, causing my to moan loudly.

He moves back and pulls the dress over my butt, draging it down my legs then tossing it to the side. He leans forward and kisses my belly with a wet open kiss. As my eyes are still closed I don't see but feel it as he pushes my legs further apart, he grabs my right breast while I feel his right hand part my folds and his tongue slips in between them. His tongue swirls around me and just when I think I've had enough he sucks on me, causing me to moan and scream loudly.

"Warren please, I need you inside me now." With that being said he lifts then turns me around so I'm on my hands and knees with my back facing him. Although I said he could do this position with me, I'm still a little nervous. I have never allowed anyone to take me like this since my first time. I'm worried the memory of it will surface while we are sharing in each others desire.

He spreads my knees farther apart while placing a pillow underneath me to keep my face off the mattress as he pushes my front forward so my backside is tilted up towards him.

"Hurry up already!", I yell at him and without further ado he parts my folds and enters me with one swift thrust. He knows that I like my sex hard so he begins a rough but quick rhythm. I moan and scream as he hits my G-spot, I can feel myself getting closer to my peak and I scream in ecstasy and tighten around him as he thusts again and again until he gains his own release. In the last seconds of my release a flashback takes me.

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"Please, please don't do this!" I cry as he grabs me harshly and drags me to the bed. At this time I'm only twelve years old.

"Shut up will you, quit your begging", he slaps me hard across the face and I feel my lip cut open and bleed.

He rips my shorts and underwear off leaving my lower half naked but rips only the front of my top so his searching fingers have easy access to my chest. He turns me on my stomach and pulls my knees up so my lower back is up in the air. I'm crying and screaming in fear, afraid for what is to come next.

I hear his belt buckle release and him unzip himself, I feel his largeness press against my sensitive vaginal lips and do everything to escape my torture, "You are begging me to stop what I'm doing now but soon enough you'll be telling me not to. I want to hear you scream my name like the whore you are." Tears fall down my face as I wait for the pain, I know this will hurt since I've never slept with anyone before. This will be how I lose my virginity, to a sick man who has lost everything.

"Please, please don't do this to me. I'm a virgin!! Please!! I'll do anything!" I had been taught to always wait and save myself for my mate, now I will never get the chance to. I cry loudly, struggling while trying to take deep breaths but that is all gone as I feel him enter me unexpectedly, all I feel is pain. I scream as I feel him rip through my innocence and he begins to pump into me roughly not caring that my body can't handle his size. He keeps going and going as my screams increase until soon enough he finds ecstasy, and my body follows in its own natural reaction, whether I want it to or not.

"See princess, I told you I'd make you scream. I know you enjoyed yourself as much as I did from the way you came around me. You were born for this, like a natural born whore", he says as he kisses my shoulder and slaps my butt. He gets up off the bed, grabs his clothes and leaves the room with one last look at me, a satisfied smile on his face. I fall flat on the bed and cry my eyes out for the rest of the night. Why? Why did he do this to me?

That was the night my self-destructive behaviour began, in hopes that I'd forget what happened to me. It was when I became...the pack slut.

*****

I feel the fear choke me, my chest tightens and I can't breath. I cry silently as Warren pulls out of me and falls down on the bed with one last lick to my neck and back.

I get up off the bed "Hey baby, where are you going?", I ignore him and continue to walk to the bathroom. I close the door behind me and look at myself in the mirror. I see my face has lost all sense of colour and I look ready to burst into tears.

That memory is one that I have imbedded in my brain, no matter how many times I have had sex after, no matter how many times I tried to push it away or whether I was raped again, it was that one that continuously haunted me. It was that memory that I'll always remember and only react to, anything else I can handle but not that.

I don't know what I did for that to happen to me, maybe I was dressing wrong or I said something. I deserved it, I was being taught a lesson. It was all my fault, I don't know what I could have done. He was showing me what I really was. Just a whore who isn't good for anything else. This is who I am and what I deserve. I am what he says I am. A worthless, wastefull whore. I'm disgusting.

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Hello my lovelies, I wrote this chapter because I want you to remember that this actually happens to people. I wrote it because I want you to know just how bad for some people it is. This I'd all fiction but people do react to sexual abuse in this way. It's sad and horrible and I want you to read this knowing that sometimes when you see people acting a certain way love them and don't judge them because we have no idea what may have happened to them.

I'm sorry if this disturbs you but I felt it was important. I hope you keep reading my book and let me know what you think.

Vote, comment, or anything else. I would love your support and encouragement.

Thanks!

-V