I'm free! I'm free I tell you! Yesterday  was my last day of my college program semester! Wow how time flies, I can't believe I only have one semester left and then I'm graduating...it's about time! Hope you've all had a great day. Sorry, I meant to update yesterday but I started falling asleep mid edit read over (I know it's not perfect) and had to put myself to sleep.

Felicity's POV.

"Well, when I was about the age of seven I had a best friend in the pack. His name was Adrian and he cared about me very much, I always tried to keep him out of the house but one day I heard my father was going to a meeting and I thought he would be gone for a while. Now although Adrian was my best friend he knew none of what I experienced or how I lost my mother, my father told me never to make friends but no matter how hard I tried to push Adrian away he kept coming back. He had his father's stubbornness which was what made his father such a good, strong pack warrior.

So that one night I brought Adrian over, it was so dumb of me to do that. I had failed a test earlier that week and I knew my father would find out about it, he always cared so much about my marks...which I never understood why. He came into the room where Adrian and I were playing and began to beat me, and Adrian crying at seeing me in pain was what alerted my father to his presence and Adrian wanting to follow in his father's footsteps tried to protect me.

At seven years old he stepped in front of me and confronted my father, telling him he would tell on him to his father. He didn't realize how much of a bad idea that was, before Adrian could even scream my father had grabbed him and broke his neck. I cried for the death of my friend and when I looked up my father was gone, but when he came back he blamed both my mother's and my best friend's death on me.

Later I found out that he had left the body at the edge of the territory and blamed it all on a rogue that my father knows likes to linger around our territory from time to time. " I look at Lana to see she's crying even more, I'm surprised Warren hasn't felt her pain and come running upstairs to find out what's wrong but maybe she's blocking him out or she's told him not to come.

"It gets worse, not only have I been beaten my whole life -I know it doesn't look like I have- but that's because he never beat me with silver, he made sure I was brutalized with something thay my wolf Ana could easily heal or I made sure I didn't let anyone see me. Do you remember the night you came back here with Warren and I stopped getting in your way?" Lana nods at my words with confusion on her face, it hasn't registered in her mind yet the implications of my situation.

"Well I didn't make it in time to talk to Warren because I had just woken from one of the worst beatings of my life, I had bruises down my entire body, a punctured lung from one of my ribs, and I was drowned over and over again because I told him I would not get in between you and Warren again. All of this was because he wanted me to be Luna and he wanted to control the pack through me. I'm not sure how he thought he would accomplish all of that without anyone noticing but he was dedicated. Every time you didn't see me at school or anywhere was because I was recovering, I've taken hit after hit but still that's not the cherry on top" I snort in disgust.

"The reason I chose to be a slut is because of certain things he did to me, I did it to forget the one thing that has haunted me for years. Which is when I was twelve years old and began to fill out quickly, my father...my own father raped me. He did it in the harshest way he knows, for a virgin to be entered from behind while on her knees, let me let you it is the worst way for it to happen. I begged him not to do it but in the end my own body betrayed me, I felt disgusting when my body reacted to him filling me. I wish that was one thing I could have avoided experiencing with him but no he was my first for everything.

He called me a whore and treated me like one, ever since I was little I was told I would never have a mate, never be loved, and never even have a friend because of Adrian. I did everything to forget what he did to me so I slept around, and then three years ago he told me I needed to become Luna and if I didn't he would kill me. I tried to fight the fear for as long as possible but fianlly gave in after a hard beating, I had hoped if I listened maybe he would stop, he did for a while but it was only temporary. That's why I got in the way of you and Warren, while part of me liked the idea of being Luna, I didn't like the idea of giving it up. Another part of me knew the fear of what would happen if I didn't get in between you two. You were so nice to me and when I realized you were feeling pain while Warren and I sleeping together, I knew I couldn't anymore. The idea that you were be in pain...I just couldn't do it to someone who has only shown me kindness.

So now that you know everything, when your cousin Kendrick felt me cheating on him, in some sense I was. The night before he was meant to return I was packing, my father came in and I confronted him; I told him I was not going to play his little games anymore and I thought he had already done his worst to me but was I wrong. Oh, I was so wrong. He did the one thing he hadn't done to me since I was twelve years old, he raped me and I fought so hard against him but still I reached my completion and he thrived on it knowing how much I hated myself for it. Kendrick didn't feel me cheating on him, what he felt was me being raped by my own twisted, sick father."

I look back at Lana to see her hiding her hand over my mouth, I guess when she said she knew I was hiding something she never thought it would be this bad. She almost looks like she's  going to throw up but is holding it down. She takes a deep breath and removes her hand to speak, "Oh Licy, I'm so sorry you went through that." She throws her arms around me in a tight hug, but I pull back "Can you call me Felicity. It's the name my mother called me and I just never let anyone use it because he hated hearing it. Felicity is the name I've wanted everyone to use and what I want to be called, I hate being called Licy because of him. Thank you, I've told you everything and you still care, that means a lot to me. Also I'm sorry to ask this but I need to, I need you not to say anything. Kendrick has rejected me and so now I will continue to live with my father. I can handle what he's doing so just leave it alone...please?" Lana doesn't say anything but just nods, I get up from the bed knowing I need to return to the place I never call home.

Before I walk out the door I turn back to her "Thank you Lana" and just before I shut the door I swear I head her whisper, "I am going to kill Kendrick if it's the last thing I do." I shrug and keep walking and head back to my own personal hell.

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That's everything now, what do you think? Hard right? I wonder what is going to happen next?!

Sorry for the late update but it was last when I was reading it over last night and was basically asleep while I was reading it so I had to stop.

Would you all do my a favour, please? Last week I posted a new book called 'You Reject Me?!' Would you mind giving it a read...it's actually my favourite story of all the ones I've started and I'm hoping you'll like it. It's seriously really good...but that's just my opinion haha. If you do choose to read it thank you in advance!

-Viorra