Kendrick's POV.

I'm back at my pack walking around my territory, and my attention is caught by some of the women of my pack watching over the children playing outside. I look away quickly thinking about my mate, we could have one day had that but she threw it all away because she couldn't let go of her 'wild life'. How could I have misjudged her so wrongly, she seemed so excited to come back here with me and yet before I even returned she was sleeping with someone else, someone else that brought her to complete ecstacy, someone who is not me. I press my hand to my chest, remembering the pain inflicted on me because of her cheating.

I try to let hate build in my heart but I can't, my feelings for her have already grown so strong. No, I do no love her as that would be too strong a word to use in the short amount of time I have known her but, I did...no still do care for her very much, more than I ever have anyone before. It is not like in the books where people fall in love almost upon first sight, real love isn't like that, it takes time to grow and mature. True love is not something that can be forgotten quickly but remains in one's heart for the rest of time once it has been found. A love that I would find just as my parents had, one that is now a pain to see shared between them each day.

I had hoped so deeply that once I had found my mate I could grow to love her but Felicity...no I will not call her that, Licy didn't even give us a chance. I thought I felt feelings growing between us but I guess I was wrong. To know that I will never have the kind of love I see every day is something that I will now have to live with.

I continue my walk and avoid seeing the loving mates' and children around the field. My phone rings suddenly and I silently thank the one calling for distracting me from my melancholy thoughts. Without looking I answer the call "Kendrick speaking." A loud and almost hysterical voice greets me, "Drik- Kendrick you must return as quickly as you can. Something bad has happened to Felicity."

My wolf jumps up in attention to the possibility of our mate being hurt but I ignore him "and why should I care? She cheated on me and then was rejected by me. I don't see how this concerns me anymore" I answer Lana rudely.

"Kendrick you fool! I told you there was more to her story! She told me everything, and by everything I mean all the gory details. When I thought there was a reason for her getting between Warren and I, I never imagined it to be as badly as this." I hear Lana begin to weep and fear begins to set into my chest "tell me Lana, what is it? What happened to Felicity?!" Oh, I'm back to calling her Felicity am I? "I can't tell you over the phone, I haven't even told Warren. I wouldn't be saying anything if she wasn't gone. She told me not to say anything but I just have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach."

I felt Felicity find her ecstacy late last night so I didn't think much of it, even though I rejected her it would take some time for my awareness of her to fade but now I'm confused about this. I've never doubted Lana when she gets bad feelings, whenever she had them in the past she was never wrong but all of this is so confusing. "Okay I'm coming, I should be there soon. I'll leave right now, make sure Warren knows I'm coming." Without waiting for her answer I hang up and run to the pack house, I rush into the house calling for my Beta "Raggavard! Raggavard come here right now."

My Beta comes running down the stairs quickly, "I'm going to be leaving for- I don't know how long but I need you to take over the pack temporarily again and would you ask your mate to pack a few things for me and then send more clothes after I leave?" My Beta nods quickly to me, "Sure thing Alpha, Latmina is already packing for you. She should be on her way down in a few seconds." He was correct as we both turns to look up the stairs to the sound of footsteps, Latmina came running down with a well filled duffle bag over her shoulder "here you are Alpha, have a safe drive." I silently thank her with a nod and turn to leave "take care of my pack you two," although we three have been friends since high school they knew I was in a serious state and knew to address me as Alpha.

I got in my car and without another thought I left to Warren's pack territory for a third time. By the time I make it there the sun is just beginning to set behind the trees, it's still relatively early in the day. I park my car on the grass quickly, jump out and run to the door, Lana is already there opening the door for me. The look of her face causes my tension to rise tenfold, if she's feeling this bad something truly horrible must have happened. Without a formal greeting I follow her to Warren's office, once the door is shut I speak remembering that no one can hear our conversation through these walls, "tell me everything."

Lana begins to tell Felicity's story and the look of shock and outrage never leaves the faces of Warren and I. She tells us how Felicity watched her mother killed, how her own father beat and tortured her to brink of death countless times, how she saw her own best friend Adrian killed at the age of nine, how her father took her virginity at the age of twelve and why she became the 'slut' everyone thinks she is today.

The worst of it all is not too long ago he raped her again and that's what I felt. Regret and agony tore at my heart, how could I have been so wrong? How could I have not known this, she showed nothing but trust for me and I threw that all away because I didn't take the time to listen. Now I understand the look on- who I now know to be- her father's face. I now know why she didn't fight back with me when I rejected her, it wasn't because she was happy to live her life the way she wanted but because she thought a rejection was what she deserved and that she didn't deserve more from the one person who was made to love her. She hasn't felt love in a very long time so how can I expect her to trust in me. I am truly the definition of the worst mate ever.

I turn to Warren, "how could you have not known this was happening, you were sleeping with her! You of all people must have seen the signs and the scars." Lana shakes her head at me "Don't blame Warren, Felicity told me you can hardly see any scars, her father made sure of that." Warren still has a thoughtful look on his face, "I can't believe how stupid I've been. I did see the signs but at the time I never thought anything of them, I just thought it was how Licy was."

I ask Lana another question "you say you just knew something was off with her. How did you know, what did you see? How could you have when not even her own pack could?" She nods her head and shrugs "well I assume it was because I have a fresh pair of eyes, I haven't spent all of my life with her as everyone else has. Also when ever she made eye contact with me all I saw was a pain she tried so hard to hide and I just knew something was wrong. From one artist looking over anothers her art work also gave it all away, when she became so engrossed in her thoughts and just painted with out thought they were always so dark and horrifying. I occasionally would hear her play the piano when walking by and even if it was meant to sound happy it never was."

A memory is triggered in my head of a time I can to Lana's university to see some of her paintings, I remember walking by a music room and hearing the most beautiful piece being played, I remember thinking of how sad it sounded but never thought anymore of it. I can recall the sweet smell of her but yet I didn't connect it to it being my mate, I could have met her sooner and saved her before any of the horrible things happened to her. Again I begin to feel like a failure, I wish I could have done more.

"You know what the weirdest part was Drik? When she was telling the story of her life she said it completely without emotion, no tears, no pain, no nothing. For the life she's led I would have thought she would have been weeping, heck I was weeping! Yet there were no tears, it was like she was telling the story of someone she knew instead of having lived through it herself. How can she do that?"

I shake my head at Lana's words, I am just as confused as she is. For someone to have suffered so much abuse in her life at such a young age. It saddens me to think she can accept it and feel nothing, almost as if she knows that that is how her life was always meant to be, I don't think she even realized she could live a happy life away from him. No, she did but I threw all her dreams back in her face.

I really need to bring her back to me, to give her the life she's always wanted. Now I realize I can...and I will do it and make it all up to her once and for all. I will save her from the one she calls father.

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Woah!! Two updates in one day?!! I must really like you guys! Okay well I do...I had quite a few people commenting they wanted another so and it made me so happy so here it is! Keep up the encouragement everyone! It really lifts my spirits!

Well, my lovelies tell me what you think now! I would love the hear your thoughts.

Okay fun question: who here has a younger (me) or possibly older sister (maybe you) who is always taking your clothes, dirtying them up and doesn't ask if they can borrow them in the first place??!! Yeah that's this gal over here (points at self), it's so annoying and aggravating. If you do this to your sibling/s stop it! (Slaps you lightly on the hand) shame in you! Hahaha

-Viorra