doctor seong sent a package to my house earlier.

my mother said it was some things he prescribed to me.

anti depressants,

relaxation pills for panic attacks,

daily vitamins because of how sick i've recently felt,

and sleeping pills.

god knows i can't fall asleep.

i couldn't last night until four in the morning,

and then i had to get up at six.

at first i was confused when my father brought home a small safe,

but when my mother got out the bottles of pills,

i understood why.

they didn't want me to try to kill myself again.