You're trying to reach the surface but you can't. It's like an anchor, dragging you to the deep bottom, unwilling to let you go. You're firmly tied and running out of air. All you can feel is panic and despair. You want out but the surface is hundreds of feet above. You see others floating, taking it easy with rafts. They do not know the heavy burden of the weight. Only how it is to float through life without this struggle of self.