Find my solitude

In the cold toilet

With no light

And no sound

Just silence

I pray all are asleep

And no one hears me

quietly moving

in the dark

I can't be caught

I can't be heard

I can't be seen

Or otherwise

Shhh

The floorboards creak

Beneath my heavy weight

As I move stealthily

I'm nearly there

just one more step

I enter to

find my solitude

As I throw up dinner

Into the toilet

Praying myself

To be thinner