Collapsing

Surrendering 

Ceasing

Why can't I just stop the pain

Stop everything

Stop being never good enough

Stop being fat and ugly 

Stop life

I want it to end

Can't keep going

Can't keep living

Can't keep breathing

Can't keep wanting

If there was only one word

To make myself happy

To rebuild the walls

To fix the scaffolding again

To stop it all 

But there isn't

And there'll never be 

Why can't I just stop living? 

I can't bear it anymore