A year without you? That was the funniest joke I could ever hear

A year without you? Something I could never bear

A year without you here?

A year without you? Really..I'm the one who couldn't bear to live a day without you

A year without you...

Without your smile,your love

Without you telling me what's the right to do

Without you telling me it will be alright

Without you holding me close when I can't sleep

Without your heavenly voice to wake me up everday

Without you making funny faces to make me laugh

Without you feeling worried each time I'm quiet

A year without you? It can not be a year

I wouldn't be alive if it'd been a year
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Here I'm a year after the last time we met

Alone for 365night, worried the whole 365day

Wanna know how I survived it?

(I didn't)

First two months:

I did pretty well! I was strong!

(The biggest lie I could manage to tell)

The next four months:

Best days!!! I finished my finals and got high marks!

(I broke down and couldn't stop crying when I told you I made it.
You told me "Congrats but I wish you are here so I can hug you" then you started to cry..I don't remember what happened later)

The next two months:

You know me, I can't stand doing nothing

(I tried doing everything to forget but it didn't help)

The next four months:

I did pretty well! You even thought I was happy! You thought I liked it here and finally accepting it

(I never did and I never will, I faked it all)

A year without you...it only made me realize how much I love you

I understand now why they envied me for having you