[niall]

I'm nervous, I mean I've been coming off so cold to Caitriona so then I can surprise her with my plans of going on a date tonight. I honestly don't know how she'll react...I hope she says yes.

over the last few weeks since the whole Harry fiasco I learned that Caitriona never really loved him. I mean I could sense it before, but now I know that she only really loves me.

I've also learned that Liam doesn't want to ruin our relationship either, which makes me feel better about the tangled up situation were in.

I also volunteered to pick up Caitriona's aunt from the airport today. she's been gone for a few weeks in Dublin catching up on some work.

when I see her aunt come out of the airport, shes holding a man's hand. it cant be...

"niall? hey" Simon greets, pulling his hand out to shake.

"um hi" i scratch the back of my head. 

"how have you been?" Simon asks with a big smile.

"ive been great I guess" I say grabbing Millie's bag from her hands. The awkward silence is killing me so I just show them the way to the car.

this is going to be a long ride.

{caitriona}

i stood still in place as Liam kissed me on the lips. Liam knew how i felt about niall, didnt he? I didnt kiss him back, but i didnt push him away either.

At this point i am so conflicted and confused. i am conflicted because if i push Liam away then he may never come back. If i dont, then he may think i still have feelings for him. I'm confused because hes kissing me even though he knows how i feel towards niall.

"kiss me back please" he whispers, backing me up. my back hits the edge of the kitchen counter and his hands press on my hips. He begins to kiss down my neck and the scent of alcohol poisons my nostrils.

"liam.."i trail off, trying to find the words to say. "liam youre drunk" i try to push him away a little, but he doesnt budge.

"So?"he pauses. "you look so tempting in just a tee shirt and panties"  he grins and his hands find their way up my shirt. I try to rip his hands off of me but he takes both of my hands in his and holds them down as he kisses me.

"Liam stop" i bite my lip. "please!"

"oh keep begging, it only makes me hot for you" he chuckles evilly.

drunk liam is nothing like the sober liam.

"Liam please....Emilia shes sleeping" I try any excuse I can to get him off of me. I'm not sure it will work, but its worth a shot.

"You don't get it do you..." he trails off and detaches himself from me. hurt flashes in his eyes as he looks back at me.

"What are you talking about?"

"I want this...I want you, I want a family with you" he sighs as I gasp.

"liam. liam we are a family" I sigh, keeping my distance from him.

"No. no we are not! not while Niall is in the picture" he grumbles.

"Why not? He's the perfect role model for Emilia-"

"He is not her father! I am her father Kate!" he yells at me.

"fine" I almost whisper. I stood in silence as he walked toward me.

"if you stay with him I will never come back. Not even for Emilia" he slurs.

"Liam-"

"I'm not finished." he stops my words. "if she is my daughter, as you say she is, you will choose me" he breathes, as the strong stench of alcohol hits my nostrils. the words he said came out more like a command than an option.

so I only have one thing to say.

//

-ily xx