Why do I always feel like I'm never good enough? I can't answer that question for you, sadly. I just wish I wasn't such a screw up. I needed him because I cared about him, I don't know why. Maybe because he was just charming and different and cute and I really don't know. But what I do know is that I have no chance with him and it kinda sucks. I tried making an excuse for being so close to him but he doesn't even want to talk to me know and it hurts because I miss him and he'll never see this so he'll never know. I think he now realizes what a screw up and mistake I am and now he's leaving. If you do ever read this, please know it wasn't an act. I truly do care for you and did maybe hope for something but I get that whatever it was is gone now. I'm sorry.