"Shawn!" I yell as he races to his car. 

"Go back inside Melanie" he grumbles, using my full name. 

"No." I pause. "Why are you leaving? I need you here" I whine as he rolls his eyes. 

"No you don't. You have William, there's no need for me" he says sarcastically. 

"Your my best friend that's why I need you-" I say as the sound of his engine cuts me off, he drives away leaving me here. 

Oh Shawn...

"Some friend" Will scoffs. "Look he's just in a bad mood, let not let it kill us having a good time-" 

"I wanna go home" I say flatly, rubbing my arms as I start to get cold. 

"Okay" he lowers his head. "Hey I'm sorry he left you here but I would be lying if I didn't say I didn't have a good time tonight" he says softly, moving closer to me. 

"I had a good time too" I smile up at him as he pecks my lips lightly. 

"Okay let's get you home" he smiles taking my hand in his. 

-

As we drive to my house William never let go of my hand, not once. If made my stomach ignite with butterflies. We just sat in a comfortable silence until he stopped in front of my house. 

"Look um I know this may be a little soon since we've known each one ther for a week" he pauses. "But I was wondering if you might want to go out... you know?" He says nervously, he gets out of the car and opens the door for me. 

"Like on a date?" I ask, my eyes wide as I get out of the car. 

The only person I've ever dated was Shawn, I've always thought most guys never found me attractive since I was never asked out. I talk to a lot of guys mostly since they are easier to get along with, but none of them ever found me dateable. 

"Yeah. I mean if that's okay" he blushes as I try to hold back my smile. We both just lean against his car gazing at each other. 

"Yeah that sounds great" I smile as he wraps his arm around my waist and kisses me. The kiss was so slow, but it was missing something. 

Shawn. 

As I was kissing Will, it was almost like my subconscious was reminding me of Shawn. I shake the thought away quickly, I must be hallucinating. 

I push Will away lightly as he has the most giddiest grin on his face. I couldn't help but smile back, but my mind is flooded with thoughts. 

"So...I'll pick you up tomorrow at noon maybe?" He grins, spinning his car keys around his index finger. 

Right, tomorrow is Saturday. I think for a moment if I have anything to do, most likely I don't. 

"Yeah sure" I smile. 

-

When I wake up the next morning I feel guilty for what happened last night. I mean I can't explain what was up with Shawn, but I still feel guilty for the way things turned out. I'm almost ready to text Will and call off the date to see Shawn instead. 

Ugh why are things so complicated...

I take a deep breath and began to rub my temples, this stupid hangover is really getting to me. I look down and notice I'm still wearing the clothes that I wore last night. I sigh and change into some high waisted jeans, a white tank top, and a red and blue flannel. I throw on a pair of black high top converse and just brush out the curls from last night. I touch up my makeup, I'm really not too bothered by how I look today. My makeup stayed on for the most part which was good all in all.

I quickly text Will that I can't make it today for the date since my hangover was really getting to me and that my head was killing me. He understood and told me to feel better and that we would rain check our date for tomorrow. 

Since it was around 11 in the morning, I figured now would be a good time to see Shawn. I grab his leather jacket he left and begin to walk over. 

I feel really nervous and I don't know why, maybe it's because I feel really bad about last night. I really want to be a good friend this time around since I ruined everything we had before. 

Everything is always my fault...

Or maybe I just force myself to believe that everything that happens between us is my fault. I really just wish that Savannah could leave us alone. I know she really likes Shawn, but she hates the fact that he's around me. 

When we were in grade school together she liked Shawn, which is why I don't suspect that she doesn't now. If she didn't have feelings for him would she be doing all these mean things? 

I sigh and knock on the front door, I hope he'll answer... he might not since of everything last night, how I yelled at him and how I begged him to stay...

"Mel?" He pauses, rubbing his sleepy red eyes. "Why are you here?" He asks as I notice he is shirtless and wearing his favorite green plaid pajama pants. 

Holy Jesus...

I feel like the wind has been knocked from me, honestly the last time I saw Shawn shirtless was almost two years ago when we were at the beach. 

It was a date, well exactly 2 weeks before the end of our relationship. Shawn noticed that I looked really stressed, so he took me a beach day date. Honestly I was stressed, by then I was still contemplating how to tell him I was moving away. But instead of telling him I just made the best of our day and didn't think to much about it. 

He was so happy that day, I can't even recall why...just the largest smile was plastered on his face like he was the happiest person in the world. He spun me around in his arms and kissed my lips softly. 

And then he threw me into the water haha...

"Mel?" He says again, making me retrain my thoughts. 

"Sorry uh um" I clear my throat. "I came by to give you back your jacket and to apologize" I say handing him his jacket, and standing awkwardly in the door way. 

"Apologize for what?" He questions. "Here come inside.." he purses his lips, placing his big hand on the small of my back, pushing me lightly inside. 

"I'm apologizing for last night...look I'm sorry I yelled at you for caring about me and you were just trying to help" I pause rubbing my arms awkwardly. 

"Look if anything, it was my fault for everything last night...I was just moody over nothing" he grabs my hands and looks sincerely into my eyes. 

"I was really worried about you last night" I sigh. "You just left me and I didn't know what to do" I say as he hugs me, I hug him back and I feel like I never want to let go...ever. 

"I'm really sorry Melanie" I say as his hands settle on my waist. "I promise on my heart I will never ever leave you again" 

"I know" I smile brightly, "I think I know what might cheer you up" 

"What?" He laughs, looking down at me. 

"Go get changed and we'll go" I smile. 

//

Ily xx