Amanda watched Harry and JJ walk towards them hand in hand.  She was so happy they were together now.  She knew there would be bumps in the road, but she was hoping they would remain together and work through them.  She wrinkled her lips though when JJ dropped his hand when they got closer to people.  She really wished JJ would stop worrying about what everyone else thought.  She was pleasantly surprised when it didn’t seem to faze Harry.  He kept walking, talking to her with a smile on his face.  Maybe he really would be the one who understood her. She watched him take JJ's beach bag and set it on the chairs next to her and Niall.

“About time you guys got here.”  Niall said.  “What took you so long?”

Amanda smacked his shoulder.  “Don’t ask that question.”

“OMG, you two.”  Julie admonished.  “Get your minds out of the gutter.”

Amanda laughed.  “Well, it’s a safe assumption; isn’t it?”

“It is not; now shut up.”  Julie said.  She looked at Amanda and knew immediately.  “But apparently, you’re thinking that way for a reason.”  She watched Amanda blush, and Niall put his head in his hands.  She smiled and starting unpacking her bag.

“Ok, you shut up now!  Go back to being close mouthed.”  Amanda said embarrassed.  “Maybe I don’t like open-mouthed JJ as much as I thought I would.”

“I like open-mouthed Julie.”  Harry said.

Julie turned to him quickly and gave him a shocked look like "you did not just say that".

Niall and Amanda busted up laughing.  “I'm sure you do friend,”  Niall said.

“Wait!  That’s not….I wasn’t….I didn’t mean….”  Harry stammered.  “Oh, what the hell. Yeah, I'm sure that way, too.”

“We had no doubts Harry,”  Amanda said.

“Alright sickos, enough talking about my mouth and what I do with it.”  Julie shook her head.  “Disgusting jerks.”

“You started it.”  Amanda said.

“No, actually Niall did.  Not my fault you two are so obvious,”  Julie countered.

“Hey!”  Niall exclaimed.  “This conversation got out of control quickly!”

Julie just laughed and took out her sunscreen.  She looked at Amanda and raised her eyebrows a couple times like "way to go".

“JJ, I swear.”  Amanda laughed though.

“Ok, you’ve properly embarrassed them.”  Harry said to Julie.  “Let me help you with that sunscreen. Before they try and hurt you.”

“I'm not scared.”  Julie said laughing.  She handed Harry the sunscreen but looked around first to make sure they weren’t being photographed.

Amanda looked at Niall.  “I'm so sorry about her.”

He laughed.  “Oh Princess, I know you can’t control her.  Besides, I'm not ashamed.”

She kissed him.  “I don’t care who knows either.”

The rest of the day was spent having fun in the sun, sand, and water.  All the guys' girlfriends were there to spend some time with them.  It made for an entertaining day.  JJ had had enough sun and water, so she went back pulled her chair in the shade and took out her notebook and headphones.  It relaxed her, and she needed it.  It had been a rough month for her.  After a while of being lost in her notebook, she felt it pulled from her hands.  She looked up and saw Zayn.

“What are you writing in here?”  He said flipping pages.

“Zayn!”  She jumped up, taking her ear buds out, and tried to reach for it.  “Not funny; could I have it back, please?”

“C'mon I’ve seen pics of you always writing in here, and I'm curious.”  He said turning away from her.  “Wow.”  He said.

“Zayn, please.  It's not for anyone else.  Just myself.  It's private.”  Julie begged him.

He looked at her and saw tears filling her eyes.  “Ok.  I'm sorry, really.”  He handed it back.  “I don’t know why you’re hiding it though.”

“I don’t want to talk about it.  Please just let it go and whatever you read.  Just forget it.  Ok?”  Julie begged of him.

“Yeah ok, for now.  But I don’t know why.”  She was talented, he thought.  He wasn’t sure why she wouldn’t let anyone see it.  But he would keep it to himself for now.  Maybe try to talk her into sharing some other time.

Harry and Perrie walked up towards Zayn and Julie.  They were a little curious as to what the intense conversation was about.  When they got to them, Harry saw Julie put her notebook away.  “Hey, what’s going on?”  He asked.

“Nothing. Zayn is just teasing me like everyone else.  Seems to be a theme these days.”  Julie said.

Perrie looked at Zayn.  “Can’t you just behave?”

“No.”  He said.  “Just wanted to know what she’s always writing in that thing.  Sorry Julie.”

“It's alright.”  She closed her bag back up and sat back down.  She watched Zayn and Perrie walk away.

“What was that all about?”  Harry asked sitting down beside her.

“Just what we said.  He got a little snatchy, but didn’t mean any harm.”  She said.

“Well, what do you always write in there?”  He asked.

“Nothing interesting.  Just helps me relax and get things out.  If I didn’t, I'd probably be more difficult.”  She said.

“I will buy you 100 more notebooks then.”  He teased.

“Shut up, you ass.”  Julie said.

“C’mon, we're all going to this outside restaurant bar place, down the beach a little.  Like a Quintuple date.”  He said.

“Did you just make that up?”  Julie laughed.

“Isn’t that a word?  Quintuplets is.”  He said.

“You’re right. It is for babies; dunno about dates.  I will pretend it is though.”  She grabbed her bag. “You’re not even old enough to drink at a bar are you?  You baby.”  She said.

“Here, technically no.  Soon though. 
Totally legal back home.”  He said.

“Wow, what am I doing with such a kid?”  She teased.

“I'm not….”  He started, but then saw the amused expression on her face.  “I've always had a thing for older women.  Haven't you heard?”  He thought she was being serious, but he was wrong.

“Good thing.”  She said.  “Besides I've always wanted to be a cougar.”

He bursted out laughing.  “I'm not sure you can classify yourself as that.  You haven't told me how old you are, but you can't be that much older.”  He said.  “Although, I'd be ok with it, even if you were.”

“Great answer.”  She looked at him as they approached the table.  “I just turned 24.  That’s ancient compared to you.”

“Oh yeah, dunno what I'm doing with such an old lady.”  He shook his head and laughed.

“Oh, don’t pretend I'm the oldest you’ve been with.  I've heard about you.  I'm just a baby.  I'm probably less experienced than you.”  She laughed.

“Are we really going to go there?”  He asked.  He was now curious about her past.

“Actually, no.  I don’t wanna know.  Rumor, truth, I don’t wanna know.”  She said. “We're good.”

He laughed.  “Thank god.”  He said.

She sat down as he pulled out the chair for her next to Eleanor, Louis’ girlfriend.  She looked across the table at Amanda.  She wasn’t sure this was a great idea. It was a lot less private than she was hoping for.  What if pictures got out?  She was trying really hard not to freak out, but being with Harry was going to get the media on her if they ever found out.  She wasn’t looking forward to it.  She looked around the room and hoped it wouldn’t happen tonight.  They all talked and had a great time.  It was nice getting to know the other girls.  After they had all eaten, they went to the bar part of the restaurant that had a dance floor.  Of course, it wasn’t long before the guys were recognized and asked for autographs and selfies.  The girls stayed back.  It was crazy.

“How do you deal with this all the time?”  Amanda asked Eleanor and Liam’s girlfriend, Sophia.  Perrie, Zayn's fiancé, was a celebrity in her own right so was also signing and taking pictures.

“It just kind of becomes a part of the day.”  Sophia said.

Julie looked at her.  “Really?”

She laughed.  “Never said you really get used to it.”

“Yeah, let's get a drink.  Um, well, Amanda and I can.”  Julie said.

“So can I,”  said Eleanor.  “We can get Sophia one.  No one will tell.”

They walked over to the bar and got drinks.  They were talking for quite a while.  The girls noticed that some fans were making their way closer to them.  They could over hear their conversation.  Julie looked at Eleanor and Sophia when she heard them talking horribly about them.  They didn’t say anything.

Amanda put her hand on Julie’s arm.  “JJ, don’t.  I can see it in your eyes.  Let it go.”

Julie bit the inside of her cheeks, pursed her lips, and shook her head.  She was starting to get angry.  No one should talk about people like that.  They shouldn’t be allowed to call themselves fans.  How could they talk about any of their girlfriends that way?  How did Sophia and Eleanor take it?

Amanda tried to keep her calm.  “It's ok.  They don’t know what they are talking about.  C’mon let's just move.”  She was hoping it would work.  She thought it did, as JJ got up and started to walk with them.  She stopped though, when she heard them say that there’s no way any relationship could last.  No one talked about her friends that way.  New or not.
Julie turned around, even though Amanda grabbed her arm, she jerked it away quickly. 

She walked right up to them and confronted them.  By the way they reacted, she guessed they didn’t expect it.  “Who the hell do you think you are talking about people you don’t know a thing about or relationships you know nothing of?  You wanna talk shit when you know they can hear you, just to try and make them feel bad? You best make sure there’s no one around who won’t call you out on your bullshit.”  She put her hand up when they started to talk back.  “Shut your mouth.  You call yourselves fans; well if you were, you wouldn’t talk shit about people they care about.  Friends, girlfriends, family, it doesn’t fucking matter.  In fact, I think you can see you’re way right out of this place before I have your rude nasty asses kicked right out.  And believe me, I can make it happen.”  She was steaming, she was so angry.

Amanda sent Sophia and Eleanor to see if they could get a member of the security team to come assist and went up to try to pull JJ away.  “JJ, come on. They aren’t worth it.  Please.”

Julie pulled her arm away from Amanda again.  “No, they won’t get away with the bullshit spewing from their mouths.  Nobody talks about my friends that way.”  She said angrily.

Amanda was shocked. JJ wasn’t usually this angry.  She was always complex and closed off, but mainly stayed relatively calm.  “Let's just go.  We don’t need a scene, JJ.”

She didn’t care about a scene at the moment.  She wasn’t going to listen to it.

Sophia and Eleanor got a security member and explained.  They went over and got Louis and Liam's attention.  They explained what was happening and the reason it was happening.  They told them the “fans” were talking bad about them and that Julie wasn’t having any of it.

Louis especially was angry; he was so tired of people talking crap about Eleanor and calling themselves fans.  “I say they get whatever she gives them.”

Liam always the peacemaker agreed to a point.  “But, It could cause more trouble for JJ than for them.”  He pointed out.  Everyone seemed to be starting to call her JJ.

Louis grimaced.  “Had to point that out, didn't ya?  Guess we should tell Niall and Harry.”

Amanda was still trying to keep herself between JJ and the other women when security came over.  They started to escort the girls to the door, and Amanda got JJ to finally turn away when one of them opened their mouth again.  Before she knew it, JJ had turned back around and went right for them.  One of the security members basically grabbed her around the waist, picked her up and carried her back to the secured area.  Amanda swore she could see fire in JJ's eyes.  She honestly wasn’t sure what to do or say.  She usually knew how to deal with JJ, but she’s never had to really deal with her anger.  Not like this.  Even when they had their fight, she wasn’t angry like this.

“I’m leaving.”  JJ finally said.  “Apparently, I’m just not cut out for a scene like this.  I need a drink, but not here.  I’m going back to the hotel and drinking there.”  She grabbed her bag, and Amanda tried to stop her to get her to wait for her and Niall and Harry. But a member of the security said they would get her back to the hotel, and Amanda thought it would be best for her to get out of the situation. So she said ok and went to find Sophia and Eleanor and hopefully Harry and Niall.  She didn’t know what to do.

Amanda walked up to Eleanor and Sophia.  “Do you know where Niall and Harry are?”

“Liam and Louis went to find them.  Tell them what was going on.  Where’s JJ?”  Eleanor asked.

“Michael took her back to the hotel. I think it's best she got out of the situation. Although they did kick the other girls out.”  Amanda said.  She was still perplexed.

“I’ve heard some pretty awful things from fans, but I’ve never had someone stick up for me like that.  Especially since we just met today.  Louis seemed quite impressed and that they deserved whatever she gave them.”  Eleanor said.

“Yeah, it was quite incredible what she did.  Liam was afraid it would cause trouble for her though.  Hope it doesn’t.”  Sophia said.

“I'm not sure what to say.  This is honestly the first time I’ve seen her THAT angry.  I don’t know what came over her.  It was kind of scary.”  She watched as all the guys and Perrie came over to where they were.

Harry immediately looked for Julie.  “Where’s Julie?”

“We haven’t told them yet.”  Liam said.  “Figured we better get them alone first.”

“Michael took her back to the hotel.”  Amanda said.  She was visibly shaken.

Niall immediately went to her.  “What’s wrong?  Is everything ok?”

“Why would she leave just like that?”  Harry asked.  “What did I do now?”

Amanda hugged Niall.  She felt much better in his arms.  “Nothing Harry. This time it had nothing to do with you.”

Eleanor, Sophia and Amanda told the story, and everyone was just quiet when they were done.

Louis wrapped his arms around Eleanor.  “Well, I for one wish I would have seen it.  I'm sick of them saying whatever they want, and no one doing anything.”

“I’ve just never seen her so angry.  She was quite scary.  I couldn’t get through to her for anything.”  Amanda said.  “I don’t know where it came from.”

Niall rubbed her arms.  “Are you ok?  You seem worked up.”

“Yeah.  Worried about her I suppose.  I'm kind of afraid she’s going to close herself off completely now.  She couldn’t wait to get out of here.  Couldn’t wait to be alone.  She said she needed to drink but not here.  She doesn’t drink much at all.”  She looked at Harry who still hadn’t said a word.  “Harry, are you ok?  Do you wanna go back to the hotel now?”

“Yeah, of course.  I guess I'm just shocked.  She’s been so adamant about staying out of the spot light. I'm surprised she did something that thrust her in the middle of it.”  He said.

“I know. I was shocked too.  But to her defense, they were saying some pretty nasty things.  She said they couldn’t call themselves fans; because if they were, they wouldn’t talk shit about people you guys care about.  Friends, girlfriends, family, she said it didn’t fucking matter.  I don’t think I’ve ever heard her swear so much.  Difficult yes, but she's always remained pretty calm and mellow mouthed.  Not tonight though.”  Amanda said.

“Maybe we should stop encouraging her to open up.  Look what it gets us.”  Niall joked.

Amanda rolled her eyes at him.  “Not now, Niall.  Can we go see about her, please?”

“Yes, of course.  Harry?”  Niall went to take Amanda’s hand.

“Let's leave separate Niall.”  Amanda said.  “It's probably not a good time to be seen together.”

He hated it, but he understood.  Everyone decided it was time to leave; so the guys went their way, and the girls stayed with Amanda and then headed back to the hotel.  When they walked in, they saw Michael.

“Hey, thanks for bringing Julie back.” Harry said.  “Do you know where she is?”

“Just took her to her room.  I convinced her it was probably best she stay out of busy bars right now.”  He said.  “She was pretty quiet on the way here, but she was pretty heated before that.  You should have seen it.  James literally caught her around the waist when she went towards them and carried her away.  He said she’s stronger then she looks.”

Harry just shook his head.  “I wish I could have seen it.”

“See!”  Louis said.  “I'm not the only one!”

“They didn’t know what was happening.  Those girls were shocked.  It was actually kind of nice to see someone stand up to them. They didn’t stop talking crap the whole way out.”  Michael said.  “Enjoy the rest of your night.  I better get to my post.”

“Make sure you thank her for us.”  Eleanor said.

“Yeah, and tell her next time to wait until I’m there.”  Louis said as they walked away.

Amanda, Niall and Harry went to the room the girls had gotten when they came.  Amanda unlocked the door, and they went inside.  It was dark and very quiet.  Amanda turned on a lamp and looked around.  She saw her on the balcony.  “JJ?  Come back in here please.”

She saw JJ tighten her grip on the railing, but after a few seconds, she let go and turned around.  She walked in and closed the door.

“What the hell happened back there?”  Amanda said to her.  When Amanda saw her face, she moved to her quickly and got to her the same time Harry did.  She had been crying.  Hard it seemed.  Her eyes were puffy and red, and her face still wet.  “Oh god. Don’t cry.  I don’t think I can handle this emotional JJ.”  Amanda hugged her.

Harry kept his hand on her, but let Amanda comfort her.  It was kind of hard on him, but it seemed to be what they needed right then.

“I'm sorry.  I shouldn’t have done it, but there’s just so much it brought back in a weird way.  And then I just kept thinking that it could’ve easily been you they were talking about.  When they find out about you and Niall, there are going to be people who talk the same shit about you.  I don’t think I can handle that.  I can’t just sit by and let them talk about you that way.  Maybe I'm insane, but hearing all the things they were saying about people Louis and Liam care deeply for kinda pushed me and thinking it could be you next.  I lost it, and I'm sorry.  To all of you.  I didn’t mean to cause a scene or cause you guys any grief.  I don’t think I’m cut out for this.”  Julie said.  She was trying not to cry.

Amanda still hadn’t let go.  JJ had done it for her.  Even though she didn’t know it at the time, it figured.  JJ was always protective of her, but this had gone a lot further than anything else.  It made sense in a weird way.  “They could have been talking about you, too.  I never thought about it that way.”

Julie took a deep breath.  She hadn't either.  This was going to be even more difficult then she thought.  “I don’t care about what they say about me.  But when it comes to you, I won’t take it.  You can bet on that.”

Amanda kissed her cheek and looked up at Harry.  “I'd better let you two talk.  I love you, JJ. If you need me, call me anytime.”  She walked back to Niall, took his hand, and went to his room with him.

Harry reached for her, and she stepped back from him. She was going to push away and pull back and close herself off.  Amanda was right.  But, why?  What was she talking about it brought things back in a weird way?  He wasn’t going to let her push him away though.  Not this time.  “Hey, don’t do that.  Let me be here for you.”  He reached his hand out towards her.  He had to be careful.  Pushing too hard would cause her to pull away faster.  It took her a minute, but he was once again relieved when she took his hand.

“I got so angry.  I'm sorry.  I hope it doesn’t cause you or the guys too much trouble.  It's like I couldn’t even think straight.”  She said starting to cry again. 

Just like Amanda, Harry was having a hard time with this emotional girl standing in front of him.  She was normally a little standoffish and unemotional, strong and sassy; but this was different.  He was convinced something more was going on.  Yes, he believed her when she said she got angry because she was afraid it was going to happen to Amanda; but there was something else.  “What did it bring back Julie?  What memory?”  He asked her wrapping his arms around her.  He felt her stiffen when he said it.  There was no doubt something else going on.  “Talk to me.”

“No, I explained.  I don’t want it to be Amanda.  And I said I'm sorry.”  She said.

Her tears stopped, and she was becoming emotionally unattached again.  He couldn’t push her anymore right now.  “Ok.  Louis was quite pleased with you sticking up for Eleanor.  He said he wished he would have seen it.  Honestly, I wish I would have too.  I wish I were the one who would have caught you and carried you away.  I kinda like that protective streak.  That temper is hot.”  He said.

“I was wrong.  And again I'm sorry.”  She said.

“So, I'm sure those fans are going to have something to talk about now.”  Harry said.

“They aren’t fans!  Not if they can talk like that about the guys' girlfriends.  And they can kiss my fucking ass.  They may be your “fans”, but I don’t give a shit if they like me.”  She said, her eyes filling with anger as she stepped away from him.

“Ok, I know this is wrong; but damn, that’s sexy.”  Harry said walking up to her.  “It turns me on.”  He raised his eyebrows at her, put his hands on her hips, and pulled her to him.  He kissed her.  Aggressively.  There was another way to work out her frustrations, and it would be a lot more fun than talking about what happened tonight.  He would dig deeper into what caused her outburst, but not now.  Now, they would be together, and he could help ease the tension that way.  When she reached up and pulled open his button down shirt, he knew he was right.  Tonight would be different.  Tonight, he would make sure she was pleasured more than she'd ever been before and that her frustrations and stress would be relieved.  Tonight would be all about her, and whatever he got out of it would be bonus.  He moved his hands around to her butt and picked her up so her legs were straddling his waist and took her to bed.  It would be a wonderful night indeed.

Niall walked Amanda to his room and took her inside.  She was abnormally quiet.  When he walked up to her, he was shocked to see her crying.  “Hey, what's wrong?  Why are you crying?  You’re worrying me here.”  He said as he took her in his arms.

She looked up at him slowly.  “I'm just….I've just never seen her like that.  Ever.  I probably shouldn't have left; but if she saw me break down, she would shut down completely to protect me.  I'm not sure what happened to her in her past to make her the way she is, but I'm more convinced now than ever something happened.”

He rubbed her arms.  “I'm listening, don't stop.  I will listen to anything you need to say.”

“It's just the way she keeps her distance from everyone.  I know I'm closer to her than anyone else. I know she loves me. But she still keeps me out of some things.  It's almost like she shares enough to keep me satisfied, but always deflects and changes the subject if it gets too deep or too serious.  I just wish she would trust me.”  She said trying to stop crying.

“We all have things in our past we may look back on and regret.  Some people are just more open about it than others.”  He said.

“Yes, but I'm her best friend.  If she can't tell me or trust me, then who will she?”  She said crying again. “She's going to go crazy if she keeps everything inside.  I never noticed before Harry that she was completely afraid of falling for anyone.  But, why?  It couldn't be natural for anyone not to want to be in love, so there has to be a reason.  I can guess all I want; but if she doesn’t tell me, how can I help?”

Niall hugged her to him.  “By always being her best friend.  I understand you’re frustrated and hurt and upset, and you have every right to be.  But if you know there’s a reason, then just be there.  Let her know you will always listen and that you want her to open up.  But most of all, don’t turn away.  You’re the best person I know Amanda.  She acts differently with you than anyone else. If she trusts anyone, it's you.  Just be you, and it will eventually work itself out.”

“I’m still in shock she did what she did, and mainly because she thought it could happen to me.  How do you process that?”  She asked.

“However you feel.  You can talk to her more about it.  You will know.”  Niall said.

“I hoped Harry would have a better time talking to her, because I would probably just cry and get mad that she won’t tell me.”  She wiped her eyes.

“Well let's do something else to keep your mind off of it.”  Niall said wiping a tear with his thumb from her cheek.

“What did you have in mind?”  Amanda said smiling at him.

He grinned his evil grin at her.  “I'll show you.”  He pulled her to him and kissed her lips and then her neck.  He ran his hands over her ass and pulled her tighter to him.

When he pulled her tight to him, Amanda could tell right away that he was ready.  There was no denying it.  He wanted her, and she was still amazed at how much.  She was seriously on cloud nine.  She never knew a relationship could feel this right so quickly.  Everything he made her feel was mind blowing.  When he scooped her up and placed her gently on the bed, she wasn’t thinking about any of her problems anymore. When he took his shirt off and climbed over her, she opened up eagerly for him.  This was what she had been waiting her whole life for.  It couldn’t feel any better.  She was wrong.  When his mouth found her stomach, she tensed up.  When it found pleasure places she never knew existed, she almost screamed his name.  When he finally entered her, she nearly exploded.  It was the most intense feeling of pleasure she had ever experienced.  She was his.  There was no question about it.

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