A couple weeks later, Julie and Amanda were boarding their plane to go to visit Niall and Harry. They were going to meet in London for a few days, and then Niall was going to take Amanda to Ireland. Amanda had just hung up with Niall, and Julie was just saying her goodbyes to Harry as they were taking their seats.

"You know you should have told me about the mom plans before I actually got on the airplane Harry." Julie said lifting her carry on into the overhead bin.

"I know you too well. You would have argued and I wanted to make sure your ass got on the airplane." He laughed.

"Well you're in loads of trouble." She said as she slid into her seat.

"I like being punished by you." He laughed.

"Oh good lord. I have to go now and shut my phone off." She said as she started to get situated.

"Alright baby. I will see you in like 10 hours." He said. "I can't wait. And mum can't wait to meet you either."

"Oh shut up." She said pushing her bag under her seat. "Alright, see you soon. Love you." She said as she hung up the phone and turned it off. She sat up and got everything in its place.

Amanda just stared at Julie. She didn't even know what to say. She wasn't even sure Julie realized what just happened. Nope she didn't, at least not at first. She definitely did now though. She watched Julie look at her phone and then she watched Julie's eyes get really big.

"Oh my god." Julie exclaimed.

Amanda watched Julie drop her phone almost like it was burning her hands. She bent down and picked it up for her.

"Oh my god." Julie said again.

"So you've said." Amanda handed her phone back. The plane was starting to taxi. She watched Julie look around. "Nope, it's too late to get off." Amanda said trying not to laugh. She knew that's exactly what Julie was thinking.

"Amanda." Julie warned.

"Oh no you called me Amanda." She said again trying to mask her laughter.

"This is not funny." Julie warned again.

"The look on your face is pretty priceless." Amanda said a little laugh escaping.

"Shut the fuck up." Julie said. What did she do? How could she just let those words slip from her mouth. She had never said it to him before. She ended a lot of calls with those words, but not to Harry. She didn't even think. It just happened. What did that mean? And now there was at least a 10 hour plane ride to think about it. To ponder it. To worry about what he now thought. "Son of a bitch." She said out loud.

Amanda laughed out loud this time. Leave it to JJ to completely over react and think so deeply about it. She was convinced awhile ago Harry and JJ loved each other. She knew neither would admit it, but you could tell. Well at least she could. Or she wanted to believe it. When she brought it up to Niall though he wouldn't discuss it. Said she needed to stay out of it. Now that JJ slipped though, she was more convinced than ever. It was quite humorous though that once again she didn't realize it until after she said it.

"Well that was interesting." Harry said out loud but to himself.

"What was interesting?" Louis asked appearing behind him. They were doing radio interviews that afternoon and were in between interviews at the moment.

"I just got off the phone with Julie. She just got on the plane. She said something before she hung up I wasn't expecting." Harry said.

"What did she say?" He asked.

"I don't think she was thinking." He said still contemplating.

"Well what did she say?" Louis asked laughing.

"Love you." Harry said kind of laughing.

"I love you too Harry." Louis said joking.

"No she said...." He realized who he was talking to and laughed. "Yeah she probably wasn't even thinking."

"Has she ever said it before?" Louis asked.

"To me? Think about who we're talking about." He laughed. "I've heard her end other conversations with it. And she tells Amanda she loves her but no, she's never said it to me."

"Well?" Louis looked at him.

"Well what?" Harry asked.

Louis just gave him a look.

"I don't know Louis. I don't know." Harry said as they got ready to do another interview.

The plane was on its final decent into London and Amanda had yet to get JJ to discuss what happened earlier. She had slept some but she knew JJ didn't because every time she woke up JJ was awake staring out the window. "Ok time to talk to me and get out of your head."

"About what?" Julie asked.

Amanda rolled her eyes. "Seriously?"

"I don't know what to say. I don't know why I said it. I was busy putting my things away and getting settled and saying goodbye at the same time and it just kind of came out. It wasn't a conscious decision." Julie said.

"Yeah I could tell by your reaction. Thing is I'm sure he heard it. And then you hung up and your phone has been turned off since. I know you've been thinking about it nonstop. So what's the conclusion?" She asked. "Do you love him?"

"I don't know." Julie said obviously conflicted.

"Do you really not know or just not sure you want to admit it?" Amanda asked.

Julie ran her hands through her hair. "I don't know that either."

"Do you think he loves you?" Amanda asked.

"How am I supposed to know that?" Julie asked. "I don't know Amanda, it seems so soon. He's still Harry Styles mega superstar I'm just, not, I just don't know."

"For someone thinking about something for over 10 hours you haven't come up with very many answers." Amanda laughed at her.

"Tell me about it." Julie said. "I thought about finding a parachute and jumping out the plane. The thought of seeing him right now is making me sick."

"I seriously doubt jumping out of the airplane would fix it. Not like he wouldn't come find you. You're afraid of his reaction? Really?" Amanda asked.

"He might not. Could be easier for him just to let me run this time. Yes, of course I am. I'm not even sure of my reaction. Part of me is glad I had to turn off my phone before he could respond, and part of me is upset I have to see him without discussing it. This whole thing with him always seems to be a conflict in my head." Julie said sighing.

"Gee, there's a surprise I don't think you're able to come to a conclusion without having a conflict. It's how that crazy brain of yours works. As much as it can be frustrating it's just you." Amanda said.

"You're never any help." Julie looked at her.

Amanda laughed. "I cannot tell you if you love him. And no matter what I think, it doesn't matter."

"Obviously I care a great deal for him. After all he's done for me over the past couple of months how could I not. But it's only been a couple of months. A LOT has happened. More than probably in relationships that last a long time. It's terrifying. Obviously you know why it would be terrifying. But what do I do? Part of me isn't sure if I just don't want to admit the answer, and the other part is wondering if I'm even capable of loving someone right now." Julie said.

"You're capable if you would just let yourself." Amanda said. "I know you don't believe it but you're a wonderful friend, a wonderful person. If you would stop being so hard on yourself, you might realize it."

"I've made many horrible decisions. So many mistakes. I don't trust my feelings." Julie admitted.

"Well there we go. You made A bad decision. HE was your bad decision. Everything else was because of HIM. Stop letting it affect everything you do. Take the power away from him. You might be surprised how freeing it is." Amanda said. She expected some sort of argument from JJ so she prepared herself.

"You might be right." Julie said unbuckling her seat belt when they landed.

"Wait? What? Could you say that again?" Amanda asked.

"No. I can't." Julie said standing up.

"I didn't figure you would. I'm glad to have you back friend." Amanda laughed. She took Julie's arm as they walked off the plane. "You ready for this?"

"Not in the least." Julie said. And she wasn't. She was terrified.

When the girls got close to leaving the terminal and walking through security they could see Harry and Niall standing there waiting. "Oh, I think I'm gonna be sick." Julie said hurrying to the nearest bathroom.

Amanda looked at Niall, laughed and shrugged. She followed her into the bathroom. "Are you ok?" She asked. She couldn't keep the humor out of her statement.

"No." Julie said.

Amanda cringed as she literally heard her get sick. "Pleasant."

Niall looked at Harry. "Um, do you have any idea what's going on?"

"I might have an idea. I'm guessing I know." He said.

"Care to share?" Niall asked.

"She ended our last conversation quickly, with the words "love you". By her reaction just now I've pretty much confirmed what I guessed, and that was she didn't realize it at the time." He shook his head.

Niall laughed. "Sorry, I shouldn't laugh but of course she's now freaking out. It is JJ we're talking about."

"Right." Harry said watching the door of the bathroom.

"Well, are you ok? Because honestly you don't seem all yourself either." He said.

"I was afraid of her reaction. I'm also not sure what to think. She had to shut her phone off before I could even react or call her back." He said.

"And now you're thinking about it, aren't you? Whether you love her or not?" Niall asked.

"Of course." Why deny it he thought. "Obviously I've heard you and Amanda say it, and you haven't known her or been with her much longer then Julie and I have been together. But our relationship is, well, a bit more complicated."

"Yeah don't I know it." Niall said. "I won't make you discuss it anymore. I will leave that to the two of you if she ever leaves the bathroom."

Julie finally came out of the stall and walked to the sink. She splashed water on her face and leaned on the sink.

"Are you ok? Seriously?" Amanda asked.

"Yeah, I just, when I saw him, it just freaked me out. I wasn't even sure he'd show up after I just blurted that out. Maybe I was hoping he wouldn't. Now in the middle of the airport I have to deal with this." Julie said as she pushed herself off the sink. "Guess I have no choice though." She grabbed her bag.

"Love or not JJ, Harry adores you. I doubt a goodbye saying love you is going to chase him away." Amanda said walking out of the bathroom with her. JJ looked a little pale. She still couldn't believe that she was so freaked out about it. She remembered thinking JJ was afraid at the beginning Harry could never have the same feelings for her that she would have for him. She guessed she was right even to this day.

As soon as Amanda walked through the secure area Niall ran up and picked her up and swung her around. "It's about damn time." He said as he kissed her.

Amanda wrapped her arms around his neck. "Oh tell me about it." She kissed him again.

Julie stepped around Niall and Amanda and looked at Harry. They were in the middle of an airport with a lot of people. She had to decide if this was it. If she went up to him now it would no longer be a secret. Everyone would find out she was with him. She looked around, there weren't a ton of people but all it took was just one picture.

Harry watched Julie hesitate. He knew she was contemplating the public encounter. He debated earlier whether he should show up at the airport. It was a lot. He knew it too. He decided to leave it up to her. He wouldn't blame her if she didn't want to deal with it.

Julie looked at Harry. All doubts left her mind when she looked in his eyes. No matter what, he's what she wanted now. No one else mattered. She walked directly up to him and when he wrapped his arms around her waist all was right. "Hi."

"Hi." He said. He looked in her eyes to determine if a kiss would be pushing his luck. When she kind of nodded her head he got the confirmation he needed. He leaned down and kissed her.

She put her hand on the side of his neck. She pulled back after a few seconds and stepped back.

He smiled at her. It was ok. No need for it to be any more than that. Not until they got alone. He took her bag from her hand and walked next to her. After a few steps he was caught off guard when he felt her take his hand. When she looked up at him to confirm it was ok he intertwined his fingers with hers and lead her out of the airport.

Amanda held onto Niall's arm and walked with him behind Harry and JJ. She smiled when JJ took Harry's hand. She was glad. Maybe JJ finally listened to her advice maybe she was finally ready to stop letting her past affect her present.

When they got to the parking garage she noticed Harry and Niall had both driven. She figured they would have come together and had a driver. "Ok so I guess we're going our separate ways." She pulled Julie into a hug and whispered to her. "It's gonna be ok." She stepped back and looked at her. "Love you, see you soon." She laughed when JJ just nodded. She couldn't even say it to her right now. She climbed into the passenger seat with Niall.

"I cannot wait to get you home." Niall said starting to drive out of the garage.

"I cannot wait to be in your home." Amanda said looking over at him.

"Time to compare my bed to yours." He said smiling at her.

"Oh yeah." She said laughing.

Julie took a deep breath and got into the passenger seat. She buckled up and looked out the window. She watched Niall's car drive through the crowd of people snapping pictures. She knew they were next. No backing out now.

"Guess we're not secret anymore." He said to her pulling out of the parking spot.

"Guess not." She said. She made the decision and she was ok with it she thought but this was still really hard to handle.

"You ok with that?" He asked.

"I have no doubts about being with you. If that means I deal with this. Then I deal with it. I just don't want to think about every action we take all the time. That doesn't mean I want to go out there and put it on display on purpose. But I want to be able to say hi to my boyfriend, when I get off an airplane, after not seeing him for weeks." She said. She did look down when they drove through the people taking pictures but when he took her hand she gladly accepted it.

"Let's go home." He said.

Amanda walked into Niall's house and looked around. It was amazing. She held onto his arms when he walked up behind her and wrapped her in them.

"Want the grand tour?" He asked her.

"How about we start with your bedroom?" She asked him.

"Oh I love the way you think." He said taking her hand and leading her up the stairs.

"How could I think of anything else walking back into your arms?" Amanda asked. When he opened the door to the bedroom she was amazed. "Wow. Look at this bed." She walked up to it.

"How about you feel the bed." He turned her to face him. He kissed her and then picked her up and threw her on the bed.

She laughed when she landed. "Feels good." She reached her arms out towards him.

He climbed on the bed and over to her. He pushed her gently backwards so she was laying on her back. "I never loved the view of my bed better." He leaned down and kissed her. He ran his hand under her shirt and over her stomach. He sat up and took his shirt off. He leaned down and kissed her stomach as he worked her shirt up over her head.

Amanda ran her hands over his back and down to the front of his stomach undoing his belt and button on his jeans. Before they knew it they were both completely void of clothing and making love in the satin sheets.

Julie walked into Harry's house when he opened the door for her. "Wow. This is. Huge."

He put her bags down and pulled her to him. He leaned down and kissed her. He didn't break the kiss for quite some time. When he finally did and they caught their breath he ran his thumb over her lips. "I have been waiting to do that since I saw you at the airport. I've missed you terribly." He ran his thumb over her cheek and temple by her eye. "No more black eye."

"Nope, no more black eye." She rested her hands on his arms as he still hadn't stepped back.

He looked at her wrist. "No more bruise?"

"No more bruise. On my hip either. All healed." She said.

He wrapped his arms around her waist. "And you love me?" He looked into her eyes and tightened his arms when she went to step back.

"Harry." She thought he was going to just let it go. She thought she had gotten away with it. She should have known better, he was always so perceptive when it came to her.

"Do you love me?" He asked again.

"I just, I was, I just ended the conversation. I honestly didn't even know I said it. I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to be like this." She stumbled she didn't know how to answer.

"I'm going to ask you one more time." He looked into her eyes again. "Do you love me?"

She could swear he was looking into her soul. The gaze was so intense she nearly had a panic attack. "I...I...I don't know."

"Julie, that's not an answer." He said. "Do you love me?" He wasn't going to let her off the hook. He wasn't sure he was going to bring it up. He wasn't sure he wanted the answer. Until he saw her again. Until he knew every action she was going to take before she did it.

She tried not to cry for a few minutes. She didn't know what to say. Or she didn't want to say it. What if she gave the wrong answer? What if she said yes and he wanted nothing to do with it? What if she said no and he didn't like that either? Honest. Just be honest. What was the answer? She put her hands over her face. She could still feel him staring at her.

"Ok I will ask again. And again. Until you answer me." He said. "I know you and I know you've been thinking about it from the moment you said it. So, Julie, do you love me?"

"Harry, I don't want to answer." She avoided his eyes.

"I know but I need you too. Please." He whispered to her.

She raised her eyes to his. She could basically see them pleading with her to answer. "Yes." She said.

"Yes?" He asked. He had gotten his answer. Now what should he do with that answer. He thought he would know right away. He didn't.

"I don't want to do this." She pulled away. She sensed his hesitation and it hurt. She didn't want it too but it did.

"No, don't please." He said pulling her back to his arms.

"I'm not asking you to say it. But you pushed me to answer and then you have nothing to say. I don't know what to do with that. I'm sorry I said it. Honestly, I didn't even think about it. I end all my other phone conversations that way. I don't talk to many people on the phone. But do I love you? Yes. As much as I know about love. I know I love my family and Amanda. I know I would lose my mind if anything happened to them or if they were hurt in anyway. And I feel that same way about you. I don't even know if I would know what being IN love is." She pulled away again.

He let her go. He watched her stand at his window. Why did he hesitate? She's been in his house for like 15 minutes and it seemed right watching her at his window. He wanted to see her there. Maybe he was caught off guard she said it first. He didn't know. Knowing her though would she believe him now that he hesitated? Guess there was no time like now to find out. He walked up behind her. He wrapped his arms around her waist. He took a deep breath when she didn't react to him at all. She usually put her hands on his arms when he did that, but she didn't move. He felt a tear drop fall onto his arm. Why did he have to hurt her? "Can I tell you something?" When she didn't say anything he continued. "You scare me." He whispered.

"I scare you?" She turned and looked at him exasperated. "How the hell do I scare you?"

He cupped her cheek in his hand. "Because I believe I've loved you from the first time we said goodbye. Maybe you're right. Maybe this is a simple kind of love right now. But there is no doubt that what you just explained I've felt for a very long time."

She slowly raised her eyes to his. The tears ran onto her cheeks. "Why do we have to be so difficult?"

He laughed as a tear escaped onto his cheek. "That I have no answer for." He took her hand. He led her to his bedroom and opened the door. "This is where I want you."

"In your bedroom?" She asked walking to the bed and taking off her shoes.

He laughed. "Well obviously. But mostly in my house. As much as you can be."

She climbed on his bed and stood on it. "This bed is huge." She started jumping up and down.

He raised his eyebrows and laughed at her. "What are you doing?"

"Checking to make sure its sturdy enough for what's about to happen." She looked at him. She shook the thought of him and anyone else in the bed that suddenly hit her.

"And what exactly is going to happen." He asked as he slowly made his way to the bed.

"I'm about to make love to my boyfriend. And the marathon we had when I left the East Coast and what happened when I got to Vegas are going to pale in comparison." She said watching his reaction.

"Oh good god." He said. He tackled her onto the bed. He laid over her looking her in the eyes. He laughed when she pushed him over and straddled his waist. Why did they have to be so difficult? Because there were no doubts how much this girl meant to him. He reached up and took her shirt up over her head and threw it on the floor.

The way he looked at her gave her butterflies. Oh she definitely loved this man. She hoped he meant it when he said he loved her too. Whatever type of love it is. But the feeling of it right now was all she needed. She raised his shirt and worked it off over his head. She was serious. They were not going to leave this bed for a very long time.

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