"but you're the one with detention"

"um so? do you want this grade or"

"oh so now i have to stay back for a history project"

"woah calm down Beckett ..just breathe."

Beckett realised that Ryan was defintely having a day not even close to as good as hers and still managed to be a little less snappy. She didn't know  if this was pretend or his behaviour litreally an hour ago. 

"alright um lets do this then"

"oh wow that was easy.."

Ryan took out his laptop and Beckett saw the screensaver, something inside her died a little bit.

"you're mom is beautiful."

"uh was actually-she was beautiful."

"i'm so sorry i just oh my i didn't mea-"

"it's okay i know."

Beckett and Ryan managed to make a list of three places to visit that day, not really far away from school.

"Should I drive or ?"

"actually um can we like walk?"

"can we what?"

"walk,like you know with our legs one two..or I have a bike."

"bicycle bike or vrrom vroom bike?"

"wait what bike?"

"you know like the vroom vroom." 

Beckett tried her best to roll her tongue and move her hands. Ryan first stayed extremely calm then his lips slightly moved, eyes began to wrinkle and then there was no holding him back. He laughed..the first time in days,months rather. The purest form of laughter. Beckett saw the twinkle on the corner of his eyes. The two dimples of either side of his cheek looking two broken stars dancing in pure bliss. Beckett couldn't help herself, she joined in. Two strangers laughed right outside school on one of the worst jokes she ever made. 

"Hold on tight.. i'm not the slowest rider."

"so it is the vroom vroom after all." Ryan giggled. He started the engine

"Are you alright?" 

"yea no um what do i hold?"

"well you can hold me i'm steady enough."//

Ryan and Beckett talked about almost everything on the way. Not like two aquaintances talking about their day but one of the most genuine talks she's had with a person. She'd only have those kind of talks with Hailey but it still felt different. Beckett unintentionally hit a sweet spot and then regretted it for the rest of the day. 

"Can I ask you something?"

"yea sure .."

"why didn't you wanna drive or be driven?" the bike slowed down

"oh my mom , she died in a car accident and i just- just get flashbacks."

"i'm so sorry i shouldn't have asked i keep bringing it back urgh."

"hey it's alright i'm over it ..besides i'm -OH LOOK WE'RE HERE"

A small gate the darkest shade of blue opened into a green field. No colours no variety just a green field. 

"The waves are rough today" 

The green turned a shade darker towards the edge and fell abruptly from such a height it was difficult to say if even a rock would survive that fall. Ryan didn't like it here. He felt odd and figety. Agony and distress was evident on his face and Beckett noticed it..  

"Are you sure this is the place?" She had a look of confusion of her face but somehow was at peace with the situation. 

"well yea the GPS says so. Something historic happened here..i'm not sure what." She broke into a smile and Ryan really liked that. //

"So your place or mine?"

"Woah Beckett damn."

"wait what oh..oh no no no I can't believe you jesus... We have a project to do alright and if someone doesn't even remember 'the significance' of the place there's a little research i have to do to make up for it gosh you're unreasonable."

"calm down Becks and I know."

"Don't you dare try to laugh and it's still Beckett"

"Lets see for how long.."

"what?"

"nothing...and you can come to mine no one's gonna be home until tommorow anyway."

Beckett didn't bother asking further why. 

Both of them just put on their helmets when the grey skies turned a little darker than they were when they reached."

"it's gonna rain soon.." Beckett liked the rain. It was calming to watch the drops of heaven fall 

"we must reach home before that then." Ryan disliked the rain ..it reminded him so much more than just falling drops of heaven.

Beckett sensed the shift and stiffness in his body as the engine started and so she did what he asked her to do..

she held on to him.

A/N- MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVESS. 🎄😘UNFORTUNATELY THE MOST I CAN GIVE YOU TODAY IS THIS CHAPTER :( POETRY IS GONNA BE ON HOLD FOR A WHILE IM SORRY PLS DEAL WITH ME. I HOPE YOU HAVE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD 

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