you aren't allowed here

where were you all this time?

don't knock on my world

I don't want to see you

this is my world
and this is my place
you are too full of yourself
and I don't want to see another glimpse of your face

like you think, I never wanted you here
but I am too polite to deny you the truth
sometimes truth isn't what you need
you need a dose of cold realization
which I will splash on to your face on
any cold day

my skies have been blue for some time
and now I wish to show the clouds
I want you to see how darkly they lie on my soul
and I want to tell you, you can never stand me
you will run for covers when I rain,
all that torrent circling within me
and you will find shelter in anything
other than me and them

you don't know how hard it has been
locking myself up
and flutter in the cage
but I did it for me
and only me
it was easy to perform
for the past few months;

no one wanted to see how I was doing:
all of a sudden you catch me mid-pose
which was for those who deserve every one of my performances
and you dare to make a comment;

I want to nibble your tongue away
scratch your face
and poke with my beak
in your eyes

you deserve it

go away from my life
go away from this world
I will only show those who taught me
sincerity
I will only show those
who can never hate me

you don't deserve it

you must understand
I hate your unannounced arrival

you can't thwart me when I have only begin
you can't seize from me what I just got

go away. just go away.

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©VioletEden

14thApril2017