start caring about things.

this feeling will selfishly tell you to not care about things because it will only make you sadder; when in contrast, caring about things actually makes you feel alive.

depression leads you slowly and gradually towards a path of complete isolation and death, sneakily calling it suicide as to not blame itself for all the things it has done.

you do care about whether your grades are falling or not, or whether you can run as fast as your brother, or whether you look good in a certain dress, or whether your parents are able to make ends meet, or whether that lonely puppy in the park has eaten something.

this feeling may tell you that you don't care about things, but as much as you still deny it, you do. and you should.

caring about things is not making you weaker. it makes you realise the presence of humanity residing within you.

when you water a dry plant, or feed a stray cat, or toss change into a homeless' cup—you are caring about things. and it doesn't make you more vulnerable, it makes you stronger.

it makes you feel as if your existence is having a purpose, you have people to care about, you have things to care about, you have work to get done.

not caring about anything will deplete your purpose, in turn, making you feel like you are worthless.

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