This would be my suicide note...

💐Emotions are useless you don't need them especially when people don't understand them. This is what causes suicide and this is why I will be next. I HATE my life and always have. Everyone hates me and always will. No one understands me or what I'm going through constantly holding in my emotions because when I let them out, NO ONE cares about them however when it comes to other people, EVERYONE cares. I thought I had friends but apparently not, maybe people are just too scared to push me put of the group and tell me that they don't want to be my friend anymore. Maybe that's it but hey I'll never know because I'm dead already. They pretty much are probing to me that I'm not important whatsoever and that I don't deserve to be here or to have friends or maybe to even be loved. I'm sorry that I'm going out this way but I've held my emotions in and relayed on a rubberband around my wrist to keep my emotions in check by snapping myself. I HATE every th ing about myself forever and always because I know I'm not good enough to be a daughter, good enough to be a sister, good enough to be a mother, good enough to be loved, good enough to be a wife, good enough to be a writer, or good enough to be anything for that. I've loved and gotten my heart broken, I've been raped twice, I've been bullied, I've failed and I've succeeded and I'm surprised to still be alive. I should commit suicide it's not like important at all. I don't know if I can truly fit into this world anymore. Maybe it's just me being on my period or something but I'm truly hating my life at the very moment. I'm sorry but I'm done.💐