I've gone from denied,
To forgotten,
All because you mistake my avoidance for hate,
And you don't know it tears me up,
To see you so ashamed,
And ignorant to my pain,
Don't you understand,
My heart could never stand up to it,
Not sure anymore if even beats around you,
Now that you've burned it down,
I once said I would burn so my loved ones could never bury me,
Always knew it would happen that way,
But I also thought the morgue was gonna burn me,
Drifting by them barely seen now,
That you decided to understand my pain,
As anger and hate,
All along you've had it wrong,
You never listened,
You never cared,
And I have lots of words,
That makes it seem like I don't care,
But I've always been prone to bite when scared and hurt,
I didn't mean to break the skin,
Or draw some blood,
Cry even harder now that you've gone away,
Instead of putting me in a corner and ripping me apart,
Isn't it sad,
That I miss you killing me on the inside,
And choking me with your words,
I've always hated it,
But its better than not having one anyway,
I only bit you so I could run  away,
Because I am tired of being stabbed with your pointed sticks,
And being told my only identity,
Is pathetic and insignificant,
I was hurting and panicked,
Backed in a corner,
I only bit you to get through,
So I can run off and hide behind the bush,
So I can finally cry hard enough to float,
And heal me up,
Where your sharpened words punctured my skin,
And opened up every last old scar,
And I've shown up with a new wound or two.

-Joshua Banks JJAJ