When I woke up the next morning I was alone, I didn't want to get up my phone started ringing. "Hello" "Hey Alessa." "Oh hey Clarissa." "I was just wondering if you still wanted to have lunch?" "Yes that would be great." "Okay well how about I just come over here in a little while and then we can leave."

"Sounds good I will text you the address." I hung up the phone I laid there in the bed and Will walks in the room. "What are your plans for today?" I ask him "I have some interviews to do then we have to go do sound check and stuff. Why?"

"I was just asking because Clarissa is going to come over and then we are going to go to lunch." "Um I think maybe you should just come with me." "Is this about last night?" "I just want to know that you are safe." "I will be fine Will I am just going to lunch with her and then we will come back here or I can meet you." 

"Okay but text me when you are leaving and when you get to the restaurant." I nod to him as I text Clarissa the address. I get up and go get ready and after a while Clarissa showed up I was still getting ready so Will answered the door. "Yes she is right in here she is just getting ready." I heard him say as Clarissa walks in the room. I was changing into my clothes "Hey did you find it okay?" "Yeah no problem at all." 

"I am almost ready." I say to her as I grab my bad and look through it. I wanted to be comfortable today so I just grabbed some jeans and a nirvana t-shirt. "Alessa?" Will says as he walks into the room, I was changing my shirt "Yes." "We are leaving already, please text me okay." He kisses me on the forehead.

"Is he okay?" I look at Clarissa "He is just going through somethings and he just wants to know that I am okay." "I wish my ex cared for me like Will does for you." I wasn't sure what to say "I'm sorry." I say to her "It's fine. You ready to go?" I nod to her and we leave. 

We decided to eat some Indian food "So tell me about yourself, you are American what are you doing here?" "Well I was actually here for school you know doing the foreign exchange thing but then I just stayed here." "Really how long have you been here?" "I have been here for about 3 years now."

"Where did you live before you came here?" We ordered our drinks and food "I was living in LA before I came here, I just couldn't be there anymore not with everything that happened." "I'm really sorry I understand how you feel that is how I have been feeling. I left my family back in Texas and moved to New York almost 7 years ago now.

I couldn't deal with my parents trying to control my life especially my mother. I met this guy his name is Luke and we were together for 4 years. I thought this was it, he was going to be my happy ending. Then about 2 years ago he tells me that he is leaving because he got an offer for this job he had only dreamed about.

It was going to be in Texas and there was no way I was going back there, but he didn't ask me to go. He never even brought it up or ask me if I wanted to go with him he was just going to leave. It tore me up inside, and I had the hardest time getting over him and the fact that he just left me. Then I ran into William and he brought something back to me that I wanted and I fell in love with him.

I knew then that I didn't love Luke like I thought I did, because the way I feel with William I didn't ever feel like that with him. After Luke left everything I thought I wanted felt so wrong, I wasn't the same person anymore. I feel lost because I have no idea what I want with my life anymore which is why I decided to join William for the rest of the tour.

I know that I want him and that is all I know right now, Alexa and I got into this huge fight a couple of days ago. I needed her and she wasn't there for me, I had been through so much with her after her ex she started drinking and stuff and everyone left her but me. When I needed her she tells me she can't deal with me.

I know that I need to forgive her for it but she is my best friend the one person I count of to be by my side no matter what and she wasn't and I can't accept that from her." 

The waitress brought out our food "I had this boyfriend he would abuse me and hurt me, and I let him. I let him do all this stuff to me because I loved him and I didn't want to let him go. I lost everyone closest to me, my parents and my friends, I only wish that I had someone there for me like you were for her.

I lost them all and that is why I left to come to school here, I didn't have anyone to tell me that it was all going to be okay. I have met some really great people here and I am so lucky to be where I am today. You will figure it out eventually maybe just not the way you planned on it. That I learned the hard way, talk to her because she has to be feeling horrible about it.

She knows she has messed but this is new to her, she hasn't had someone who has needed her like she has needed you all those years. This is new to her just like you needing her is new to you. It's okay to need people you know I may not know you but I have already picked up on that. You are a strong person and you don't like to need others, which is why you are having such a hard time right now.

You started depending on Luke and then he just left and you are more mad at yourself for realizing that you depended on him more then you thought." She was right about all of that and I knew that Alexa would like her as much as I did. She was the same age as we were and we got along really well. 

We talked for what seemed like hours and I was glad that I had gotten some of this stuff off of my chest. My phone started ringing I knew who it was before I looked. "Hello?" "What the hell Alessa you said you would text me." "I'm sorry we started talking and I just forgot."

"Alright well I will see you later." I hung up the phone as we ate our food. I was glad that I had met Clarissa I had a feeling like she would become a really good friend. After we ate Clarissa and I decided to go shop a little. We had some time to kill so we just walked around in a little shopping area looking and buying things.

It made me think of Alexa and how much I really missed her and how I wanted to just get on the phone and call her. Clarissa and I took pictures trying to on different things and being silly. I posted some of them to Instagram, we made our way back to the he house and got ready for the show.

Ricky came to pick us up, it was always a good time getting to see William perform. After the show we walked outside with the crowd. A lot of them knew who I was by now and wanted to take pictures with me. I talked to them and it was amazing getting to know what William meant to them.

He was inspiring and heroic in a way and I just thought it was beautiful to listen to them talk about him. Some of the lucky few who waited around with Clarissa and I got to meet him. He came outside looking for us as we talked to them and so they took pictures with him. I loved to see him smile, we said good bye to the crowd of people and left.

We had to leave early because we had a long drive a head of us. I said my goodbyes to Clarissa and I told her I would keep in touch with her. Everything seemed to move fast after that. It was long hours on the road and multiple meeting and interviews where they pretty much asked him the same questions over and over.

It was Friday and Julian went to go pick up my brother and Alexa from the air port. I wasn't really sure how I felt about seeing Alexa but I knew that I missed her a lot. I was going to talk to her now that she was going to be here.

I was in the room when I  heard Julian say he was back. I went out and hugged my brother I was kind of glad that Alexa wasn't in the living area when I went out. "Hey sis." "Dom I'm glad you could make it mate." Will says from behind me. "Has she already been getting on your nerves?" Dom says as they walk to the patio.

I shake my head as I see Julian come out of the room. I smile at him as he joins the guys outside and I go and knock on the door. "Come in." Alexa says and I walk in "Alexa?" I say to her but she was jot happy to see me at  all. "What do you want?" "I was coming to see if we could talk?"

"Oh now you want to talk? Or is it because Clarissa isn't here to talk to you?" She was upset with me which was only making me mad. "What is your problem?" "You Alessa you are my problem, I have been texting you for days now and you haven't replied. Then I get on Instagram and see that you have already replaced me."

"Clarissa is just a friend Alexa and I'm not trying to replace you with anyone no matter what happens between us Alexa you will always be my number one. This whole time I thought I was mad at you for not being there for me, when I was really just mad at myself.

It wasn't fair of me to push you away like I did and I am so sorry for that. I need you Alexa and I know that you need me too." She didn't say anything for a little while "I didn't know how to be there for you that is why I told you what I did. You haven't ever needed me like that before. It had always been me who needed you to carry me.

So when it came time for me to carry you I didn't know how. You have always been the strong one even when things got you down. You would always just pick yourself right back up. I'm sorry that I made you feel like I had abandoned you."

I went over to her a hugged her tight I had missed her a lot. We sat there and talked about the past week. I told her about Clarissa and that we would have to come so she could meet her. I told her about me and my mom and it felt like years that I hadn't talked to her.

The rest of the day seemed to just go by. Julian and William had to leave and I spent the day with Dom and Alexa. After the show we came back to the house. I was just glad that I would finally be getting a good night sleep.