All I wanted to do was sleep all day and my phone kept ringing, "What the fuck seriously?" I say to myself as I grab my phone "Hello!" I say annoyed "Well hello to you too." My mother says "What are you doing? I have been calling you."

"I was asleep which is something I would really like to get back too." I say to her "It's already 1 o'clock there Alessa you should already be up." "What do you need mom?" "Alessa you don't have to be so hasty with me. It's not my fault you want to spend all day sleeping when you don't need to be."

"Mother what do you want?" I want you to start making better choices Alessa, what were you doing that you are still asleep?" "I'm gonna hang up now." I say to her "Why do you always act like this with me?" "Oh my gosh because if I wanted you to know about what was going on in my life I could tell you. Instead I have to listen to you question me about every little thing like why I am still sleeping. It's not going to be the end of the world that for one day I decided to sleep very late."

It was at these times that I wish I could just pick up the phone and call my brother but he was gone and I couldn't do that. Him being over seas for the Army right now it was hard to have contact with him. He had been gone now for about a year and a half and I missed him so much.

"I am your mother and I am tired of you treating me this way Alessa Elizabeth Michaelson" "You totally went for it using my full name and everything didn't you mom?" I say as I laugh on the other end "It isn't funny I can't even have a conversation with you because everything I do is wrong."

"Wow and I wonder where I got that from? Do you actually hear the things you say because you do the exact same thing to me." I roll my eyes "Don't even go there that you got that from me." "Okay bye now." I say to her as I hang up the phone seriously I don't know why she even calls me anymore.

I pushed the phone away from me to the other side of my bed as I tried to go back to sleep. It didn't look like me going back to sleep was going to happen now. I got up and Alexa was still sleeping, I went into the kitchen and made a sand which. I turned on the TV and started watching my shows.

After some time Alexa finally came out of her room "It's about time you got up." I say to her "I seriously just want to go back to sleep." She says to me as I shake my head at her "I tried to sleep longer but you know my mother called and well that is all I have to say about that. You know she even used the Alessa Elizabeth Michaelson card with me."

She laughs "Oh don't worry my mother still uses the Alexa Charlotte Montgomery on me especially when I call her back after about 2 days of her calling me non stop." I shake my head "What are you eating?" I looked at my half eaten sand which sitting on the couch next to me.

"I was eating a turkey sand which, I still got half do you want it?" I ask her she grabs some chips from the cabinet and makes her way over to the couch. "So are you ready for the show tonight? I seriously can't believe that we met William Singe last night." Alexa says I still couldn't believe it either and truth was I was still trying to figure out if it was a dream or not.

"I feel like that was just a dream and we didn't actually meet him." I say to her "Oh girl we definitely met him last night and you totally have the picture to prove it. She says to me she grabs my phone and brings up my pictures showing me the one we took together last night.

"I'm going to wake up soon and be very disappointed." I say she laughs and shakes her head at me. "What are we going to wear?" She says as she grabs my arm "Alexa calm down." I say to her "You look good in anything that you wear."

"I need to look extra good tonight?" "Why?" I say to her as I raise my eyebrows at her. She rolls her eyes at me "Is it because of Julian?" I say to her and she smiles at me "Oh you like him." I say as she hides her face. "Oh you really like him." I say as I laugh.

"Oh don't even act like you don't like William." She says to me I shrug my shoulders at her like I didn't know what I was talking about. "You can't lie to me." "I'm not lying I didn't even say anything besides I only just met him last night."

I say to her "Okay and you have literally been in love with him since he started making those covers on YouTube." "It isn't the same, I was only watching him on YouTube I didn't ever think I was actually going to meet him. Much less actually sit down and talk to him."

"Well he likes you." "How could you possibly know that?" "Well he couldn't keep his eyes off of you last night." She says to me "He doesn't even know me though." "Well help him out Alessa, you need to get back on the horse. Maybe you won't be so grumpy with your mom."

I as I hit her in the arm "Wow what makes you think I haven't gotten back on the horse anyway." "Well it wasn't good then because you are still grumpy." "You might actually be right about that." I say to her and we just sit on the couch laughing.

I didn't actually know if I was ready to start a relationship again but there was nothing wrong with getting to know someone. No one had really interested me enough in college to try and get to know. The only reason I even would talk to Josh was because we had a physical attraction but that's it.

I guess I just really didn't know what I wanted, after Luke things just seemed different. I wasn't sure what I wanted anymore. I always pictured this picture perfect family life because that's how I felt when I was with Luke.

When I turned 18 I was glad that I was finally old enough to be considered an adult and I took that and ran with it all the way to New York. I started college and I met Luke and we had been together so long that, that was how I planned the rest of my life with him.

I spent 4 of my adult years with him thinking that was it I had found my life. Then we break up and I'm just like what the hell was I thinking, there was so much more and I was stuck in this world with this guy.

As the last year and some months passed I realized that everything I had planned for myself no longer felt right to me. The only reason I haven't tried to get to know anyone is because I don't want to create another world like I had with Luke.

To get lost in someone like that again thinking that was all I needed only to have it come down on me again. There is so much for me to explore on my own, there is also something about will that is exciting and new. I guess the only way I can really figure out about it is to get to know him and see where it goes from there.

I looked at the time it was already going to be 5:30 "Oh shit." "What? What's wrong?" "It's 5:30 we need to get ready." I say to Alexa as we both get up in a hurry and make our way to our rooms.

I grab my bra and panties not having thought about what I was going to wear. I get in the shower trying to figure out what I should wear I was stuck between my denim shorts or my white leather shorts.

I stood in the water trying to figure it out, I snapped out of it as I finished my shower. I got out dried off and put on my bra and panties. Instead of trying to figure out what I was going to wear I did my hair and make up first.

I decided to leave my hair straight and down, it was already 6:15 when I finished doing that. Alexa comes into the room she was wearing her black leather shorts and a white long sleeve v-neck with her black leather cut off jacket to go over. She had on her black heels and she curled her hair.

"Are you sure you want to wear heels?" I say to her she nods to me. I decided to wear my denim shorts with a black tank top. I wore my long red lace cardigan, I put on my black ankle booties. There was a knock on the door and Alexa went and answered it I put on my lipstick and looked myself over in the mirror.

"You look great Alessa come on the guys are waiting for us." She says to me. I decided to go with lace because it wasn't a really heavy fabric and I would still get enough air so I wouldn't sweat either.

I grabbed my phone and little wallet that I could fit in my pocket and put them both in my pocket. I walked out and only will was standing in the living room. He smiled at me "You look beautiful." He say to me as I give him a hug, Julian and Alexa were already in the car waiting for us.

Will had on some denim skinny's with a black shirt and a black and red Nike jacket over. I closed the door and locked it as we made our way to the car and left. Alexa and I sat in the back seat I guess I was a little nervous and Alexa could tell.

She grabs my hands "Why are you nervous." She says to me but soft enough that only I could hear. Will and Julian were in there own conversation, "I'm not." I say to her and rolls her eyes at me. "Seriously why you trying to lie to me. For one you are doing that thing with your hands that you only do when you are nervous."

I look down at my hands and then back at her "Okay fine I am." "Why?" "I don't know." I say to her, I really didn't know why I was so nervous. William made me nervous but I wasn't yet sure why.

I looked up only to see him staring at me through the mirror on the sun visor. I was pretty sure I blushed and looked away from him. Him looking at me like that wasn't helping either, I was glad when we finally pulled up to the venue. There were so many people waiting outside and the line was long.

We pulled around to the back and we got off and went inside William grabbed my hand as they lead us to his dressing room. "It's really amazing to see all them people out there." I say to him "It really is amazing, seeing that was only a dream I had and now it's come true."

I liked how he lite up when he talked about seeing all his fans and his journey getting where he is now. Him and Julian did their pre show rituals the last thing they did before they called Julian on stage was take a shot and Alexa and I joined them.

As they called Julian to the stage he took Alexa with him Will started pacing as we could hear Julian talking and pumping up the crowd. They said it was almost time for him we walked out close to the stage and he gave me a hug "Thank you for coming he says."

"Thank you for inviting me." I say to him Julian says his name and we walked out I went straight over to Alexa and Julian. Everyone yelled and took pictures as he stood there and talked to them a little bit before starting the show.

I took my phone out as I recorded him singing and dancing on stage. Alexa and I walked down and said hi to all of our friends and we watched him from the front where they were. They were so close to the stage that William could touch them if they held there hands out.

I recorded him from down there as we danced and sang a long with him. That was where he belonged on stage performing for all of these people and it was amazing to see how happy he was while doing it.