*TRIGGER WARNING*

If I'm alive, why don't I feel anything?
If I'm alive, shouldn't this hurt?
If I'm alive, how can I be so damn numb?
If I'm alive, shouldn't I be concerned about the wounds on my limbs?
If I'm alive, why doesn't the red liquid alarm me?
If I'm alive, why don't I flinch when cold blade is held to my skin?
If I'm alive, why do I stare motionless at my body losing so much blood?
If I'm alive, why don't I care?

I must be dead inside.

I must be alive but only just. Breathing, eating and sleeping doesn't count as living, it only counts as surviving.

If I'm alive, why do I want to die?