Donté

Hearing some noise,which was making my head hurt, I opened my eyes to turn the noise off, only to see Roman turning the alarm off on the clock, seeing it was 6:56 a.m., which in my mind made me wipe my eyes. Getting up, I went to the bathroom to release myself, I sighed after finishing and washing my hands, only to see Roman still in his bed on his phone, which was confusing because he have class in the morning, which led me to go to my bed and not worry,because I already got enough on my mind, putting headphones in turning on music.

I miss her so damn much, that I can stop hurting and crying about it just by thinking about it. When I started going to school in elementary school, she was crying so much, because she didn't want to let me go, but my dad, or sperm donor, would convince her to let me go. Before, they was so much in love you could see it on there eyes when they look at each other. Every Wednesday night, was family night. Me, my mom and father would gather games, she would cook food for the whole night, while me and my dad would go the room to get blankets and pillows, bring them downstairs to make pallets for us to sleep on. We would play games such as Go Fish, Monopoly, Chess, or Tic-Tac-To, which I won every time. Every weekend we would go out of town and explore more out in the world. But, that all changed one day when my dad didn't come after he had a argument about him not coming home until 3 in the morning. That day, it all changed. They argued almost everyday, he come drunk or smelling like another woman, my mom started harming herself, and I would be there to hold my mother when she cried. Then the day came. He came to the house and threw the divorce paper, telling her that she don't want nothing to do with her, saying he have a better woman.

After the door closed when he left, my mother went into depression, she wouldn't eat, wouldn't sleep, wouldn't come out of her room, but to only use the restroom and back. When bills was going sky high, my grandmother, my father mother, came and stayed with us, paying the bills, helping around the house, and treating my mother. Sometimes when she come out of room after my grandmother, she would come out with make up, looking beautiful like a goddess, because my grandmother would sit down and listen to Whitney Houston, talk and laugh while I stayed in the living room watching TV, hearing them laugh which made me smile.

But then one day it changed my life since then. One day when I was school, I was in my science class when I was called into the office, which led me to the front, when I got there my grandma and a police officer was standing, looking at me sadly, which confused but when I asked whats going on, they told me its about my mom, and before they could explain I screamed and shouted, demanding what happened. My mother killed herself. Ever since that day I was never the same, I hurt other feelings, I had endless females and dudes in my beds fucked them and left with no remorse, because I felt empty inside, which led to who I am today.

Feeling a tap on my shoulder, I looked and seen sit back down on the bed, motioning me to take the headphones out. I rose up, sitting up on the head board.

"This is a first of you actually staying and acknowledge me since we've had this room, whats up?" wiping my face and sighing, I guess I was still crying thinking about the memories

"Well me and my girl have a doctors appointment to go to,since she pregnant, but I can see you have something on your mind because you is crying silently while listening Whitney Houston On The Sparrow, so what's on your mind bro?" making me sigh thinking if I want to tell him whats going through my mind, shit, to be honest, I never told anyone what going through my head instead of Devonte.

"Just thinking about my mother. She passed when I was young age after my father left us for another woman. She fell into depression for a long period of time until one day, she snapped and killed herself when I was in school. Til that day, I was just a nigga that fucked anything or anyone with legs. I never cared for neither of their feelings, and was cold- hearted. Then their was Adonis. For the longest I knew him, I always liked him, but he only see me as this fuckboy, which I don't disagree, but I just don't have the fucking balls to tell him but flirt with him, but he still the same. He been on my mind since for the longest, and when I see him with my old homeboy Donnrie, it just pisses me the fuck off. He smart, shit loyal to a fault,he fine as hell."

"Look man, I'm go be honest with you man, you dumb as hell, period. You think Adonis go like you or even be around after what you have been doing for the past, what 1 month? If you really like him, you would stop whatever the hell you've been doing since when you ever started liking him. Because the way you going now , you not go win him over by what you doing. Now, I know where you going through about your mom, because my mom got killed in a drive-by with my little sister on board,killing then both on impact, and my father he just sat there got drunk blaming me, beating me half to death. He was killed in prison when I was in high school. Look,don't let you past effect your future. Have you talked to your father why he up and left?" when he mentioned that, I got angry all over in my head.

"Yeah, yesterday I went and visit him after him continually trying to get me to visit him. When I went up there, he felt like he won a prize and when I asked him, he told me him and my mom was going through things already, and said she was the problem, and that's when I snapped and told him I didn't want nothing want from him." sighing, he got up and checked his phone after it beeped, I guess regarding his girlfriend was letting him know she ready. After finishing putting on his shoes, he came back to the bed putting on cologne.

"Look, what you have between you and your father is toxic. Give yourself sometime to breathe. And you and Adonis, look y'all be good together, I can tell from what you told mean knowing the real you beside being something you not for the past 2 years, I know y'all is, but you need to get your act together. I'll see you man" dapping me up, hugging me a d. E telling congrats, and closing the door while I sat back listing to music. While I was listening to music, I started thinking about my mother again.

A hour later, I heard knocks on my door, which I ignored,but whoever it was still knocking on my door, so I got up but only to take off my shirt because it was hot as hell in my room and going to the door to see Adonis.

One side of my mind was like:

While my other side was thinking to other side like:

"What you doing here Adonis? I thought you was mad at me when you stormed out the library" leaning against the door,while stood there for a while and just walked inside and sat on the bed.

Why do he got hickeys on his neck?

"I came to apologize about yesterday, I shouldn't have reacted tha-" I cut him off before he could finish that sentence or whatever he was go say

"Don't Adonis. Don't fucking sit here, and say you came here for me but didn't. As soon as I look sad or depressed, here you come caring for someone. You ain't know I am or what I went through.Don't sit here and say its okay to let it out or its go get bet better , well news to ya, it don't.So do me a favor and get the fuck out" opening the door back breathing hard and feeling wetness on my face, meaning I was crying. He stood there for a second before he said

"No, I'm not going no fucking where. I came this far and I'm not going anywhere. I know what you went through, I lost my grandmother after my dad left my mom . I might don't like you,but care. Please talk to me." walking up to me and closing the door, pulling me to the bed and sat beside me, while I'm still trying to figure why and how he got hickeys on his neck

"So what you want to know?"

"Everything"

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