It's been a week since the incident.

I've had five days filled with countless chances to tell you and I still have yet to. Don't get me wrong, Richard. It's not because I don't want to. I need to own up. I need to face the consequences of my actions.

But every time I look at you, I'm just reminded why I fell in love with you in the first place.

I know I mentioned I felt like you were getting more and more distant but perhaps it was me who was distancing myself. Not you.

I don't know.

I'm just so lost right now.

I wish I could tell you what's going on in my mind but I'm afraid I might say the wrong things. I'm afraid I'll just hurt you more.

Terri