"All i hear was sirens,"

Jeonghan spoke softly as we sat on the dining room, silently eating the spaghetti mushroom i made. I looked up from my plate to see the boy i loved smiling widely, but he wasn't looking at me.

"The first time i met you, i heard sirens." He continued, yet he never landed his gaze on mine. He chose to sat across me today. Back then, he used to pull his chair so that he would sit closer to me. But now, it felt like he was avoiding me, my gaze, my words.

"You came to the rescue when i was soundlessly shouting for a remedy. Though you were still far from where i was, i could hear you and then i knew you were going to find me. And you did, i was glad that you did." This time, his eyes met mine. But i wasn't happy. I wasn't thrilled. His eyes met mine, but he wasn't happy. His eyes didn't show me the cheerful bright brown eyes anymore. They were just... dead.

"The second time i met you, i could still hear your sirens and they got closer. You were always ready to help me anytime and i let you in when all i did back then was pushing people away. You were an exception. Each time, the sirens grew louder and i knew you were the one so i asked you out. I was happy that you agreed."

He put down his spoon and fork, signaling that he was done with his food. I stood up and took the plates, before leaving him to do the dishes. I thought he was done talking. I didn't even understand where he was going, but i'm guessing it wouldn't end in a good way. So i ran away.

After doing the dishes, i turned around to see him already leaning against the doorway. I knew he followed me, i was just ignoring him.

"While we're dating, do you still hear the sirens?" I asked.

"I still do." He replied with a reassuring voice. I knew he was lying. I knew him too well to believe what he said earlier. He was always the good liar, and i never believed in any of his lies.

"But each time, they're getting farther and farther away from my hearing and i'm afraid that i won't hear them anymore."

Are you afraid of losing me or the sirens, Jeonghan?