The beginning

He entered his new apartment feeling frustrated rather than excited. The lad threw his keys on the coffee table sluggishly.

Edward was looking around him like a curious cat coming across a new place. Sighing loudly he sat on the couch in complete boredom. The apartment felt empty than a crypt . The curly-haired guy didn't want to just sit there watching the walls , no matter how prettily he had painted them. He needed to see real people , talk , and laugh.
He was in need for the loudness and the quiet joys of life .

When will the pain stop ? He thought.

That pain of feeling nothing at all.
A kind of pain that is holding him to the ground , and only letting some of the sunlight in. Nothing matters to him , nothing significant worthy of his time anymore. The sun rises and falls , days come , and go and he is standing still like a scarecrow.

There's nothing wrong with him ;no cold , no flu evan a heartache , but He can't feel a damn thing. Well , it's like when you go under water , and you close your eyes . Everything in the world suddenly ceases to exist somehow.
The only thing you can hear is the beating of your heart , and the thoughts on your mind.

That's how he feels about everything lately. The green-eyed lad can only hear the echoes of past voices on his mind , and sometimes it's hard for him to breathe however the rest the world doesn't matter to him anymore.

He is just feeling the beating of his heart ; nothing less , nothing more.

Edward found himself opening his account on Facebook that he had been abandoned for years. He kept scrolling, adverts from companies and posts of grinning friends , all so happy. He decided to change his status to a poem he wrote long ago.

" A paper in the see written on it rescue me"

Minutes passed until Lucy liked his post on Facebook and then there was a buzz notifying him that someone is calling. He received the phone call and listened to her breathing.

   "Yes Lucy "  He answered in annoyance.

" I have seen your status .  . Is everything okay ?" The concern thoughts looped around in her mind when she saw his status until there was no room for anything else to think about except him.

" Nothing is wrong   .   .  go to sleep" 

She didn't utter a word lost in her own world . The tension of earlier was gone. She closed her eyes and let her limbs fall loose , head tilting backward enjoying the sound of his breathe.

" Do you  .  . Do you love me?"
She asked him hesitantly waiting for his reply. Waiting was easier for her than hearing him lie to her . Waiting does this , she guessed. It gives the person time to examine the ordinary , and ask questions of things they simply take for granted that's why he took his time before answering her question.

Edward responded to her angrily like she expected.

" I've fucking told you before that I'll never leave you   .  .  . I won't leave you "

His voice rose above the sacred silence. Edward barely showed any emotion beyond being cold. But today was different , he was hurting , and she couldn't help him. She knew him better than anyone , loved him better than anyone , but in these infrequent failures to suppress his rage at the world he tore in to her . Lucy knew his weak spots and deepest pains. She has watched him change from happy to angry to being hurt.

So much damage has happened to him in this year .

She wasn't mad of the way he was expressing his love towards her she got used to his mood swings.

" I just want to make sure that you still want me , you know me well I always keep overthinking , and my mind is playing tricks on me "

" And I've told you a lot go after your mind it'll never lie to you "

Lucy stayed silent she was lost she doesn't know what to do . She knew he was hurting however she couldn't do a thing. He took everything from her that she was left with nothing to give to him.

No respect  .  .  . Not even Love

Every time she tried helping him he would shut her down. She was hurt too . Everyday they've spent together was a new wound , a new scar added to the collection. The hurt has covered him with a cloak he never wanted , bonding to his skin when all he ever wanted was the sunshine.

He was damaging himself and everyone who comes near him.

Until his eyes landed on her and from here every thing turned upside down.

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