Keiths POV

Timeskip to 6:00 am

I didn't sleep at all last night.  I felt miserable. Lance continued to hold me as he slept the whole night. "Lance wake up." "What is it." He mumbled. "You have to go to school get up." He looked at me and smiled. I looked back at him. "Come on you're gonna be late," I Said. He sat up and I sat up next to him. He held my hand. "What happened last night? You had tear stains under your eyes." He said. I looked at him. "It's done and over with. I already talked to someone about it." I replied. "You really should get ready you're gonna be late." He stood up and pulled me up with him. I leaned on him as we walked to the kitchen to get some breakfast. "Hello, Lance and Keith," Adam said eating his breakfast. "Hi, Adam where's Shiro?" I Said looking at him as Lance made both of us cereal. "The Garrison wanted Shiro to put in some extra shifts since he's been leaving work."Lance handed me my bowl of cereal and I looked down at it. I've been putting Shiro through a lot and I'm just making him stress out more and more. Lance walked with me to go to the table and sat down. "Lance, Shiro wanted me to tell you to stay home today. Keith's treatment starts today and he doesn't want him to be alone on the first day." Adam said. "I'm not a baby I can stay and do the treatment with the doctor alone," I Said looking down at my cereal spinning the spoon slowly.  "I should get going." Adam put his bowl away and got his things and left. "Are you okay?" Lance asked. "I'm just tired." I wasn't tired. I felt guilty. About Rolo, and Shiro. He brushed my hair back picking my head up. "You look miserable you should get sleep before the doctor gets here." He said. He had a morning glow. He kissed me. He kept moving his body towards me. I started to refuse. And pushed him away slightly. "I'm not in the mood, sorry," I Said and started to look down. "Are you okay? You know you ca-" I cut him off. "I know I can I don't want to talk about it." He nodded okay and I started to eat my food. I didn't finish cause I wasn't that hungry. I put my bowl into the sink. I wanted lance to leave the apartment for a little so I can be alone. "Lance, can you do me a favor?" "Yea what is it?" "Can you get me a coffee from downstairs?" "What kind?" "Surprise me." he grabbed his shoes kissed me on the cheek and left the apartment. I ran to the bathroom and started to tear up. I didn't want him to worry about me. I've been needing to cry to myself for such a long time. I sat on the floor and cried. I opened the bottom cabinet and I couldn't find my razor. I got up and ran to shiros room. I started to cry harder. I looked everywhere for the razors. They were no where to be found. I ran back to the bathroom and looked for them in there again. I found some in the back of the closet. I took one and broke it. I need to stop doing this. I started to cry harder. I took the blade and cut my wrist. Every cut getting deeper and deeper. And my tears coming harder and harder. I  threw the broken part into the trash and hid the blade. I washed my face so there wasn't any tear stains. Pulled down my sleeves and sat in the living room as if nothing happened. I put on adventure time and waited for lance. Lance came into the apartment. "Here you go. A pumpkin latte." He handed me the coffee and sat next to me. My wrist was hurting more then ever. I couldn't shake the pain. I drank the coffee. He held my hand and intertwined our fingers. I didn't close mine cause it would've hurt. I put my head on his shoulder. A faint knock came to the door. I went to the door and opened it. "Coran?"