Dear diary,

I barely kept my phone. I sat alone all day today, ignoring most of the people in my life but there is someone who had brought a light to my depression and is able to make me smile. I'm glad to have them, there the only reason I didn't cut today because it was just a bad day. Also it's almost Christmas, my goal is to make it to turn with out cutting but I'm not positive I'll be able to do it, I guess I'm just in a slump right now. Suicide hasn't run through my mind today which is rare, I usually think about it ever day but I guess it's the person in my life that's made me care. I guess I don't want to leave them. I feel like a fat-ass though, I ate a bag of chips and a bunch of chocolate plus two burgers from a fast food place, I've thought about making myself through up but I don't have the guts, maybe I can get them though so I don't have to be ashamed of my body anymore. I look awful in all cloths so I usually just wear sweatshirts to hide my awful body. I'll cut it short today diary, since I'm in a good mood.
Till next time
~ yours truly