"the picture you put on instagram was so cute. it made me miss you even more." yoongi spoke into the phone as he lay down on his bed in the tour bus, holding his phone to his ear. it was the only place he could get privacy without the rest of the members listening in on his conversations with his boyfriend.

"i don't think it's possible for me to miss you more than i already do but on happier note, it's ten weeks now."

"really?" yoongi sat up, careful not to hit his head of the roof of his little component, his eyebrows raising. he didn't realise how fast the past week had went by.

"really? it feels like it was yesterday i was telling you that it was only eleven more weeks. hopefully the next ten fly by as quick as this one did." yoongi smiled as he listened to his boyfriend humming in response.

"yoongi, you've gotta go to hair and makeup. i'm sorry to interrupt you but our manager told me to get you." seokjin explained softly, pulling the curtain over from the side of yoongi's bed. yoongi nodded, letting out a long sigh, not wanting to hang up on jimin just yet.

"baby, i've gotta go to hair and makeup now."

jimin stopped talking for a few seconds. "that's fine, yoongs. good luck on your show tonight, you'll do great, i know you will. i look forward to seeing videos."

"thank you, darling. i'll text you later. i love you."

"and i love you. now go, you have a show to attend." jimin ended the call after he said that causing yoongi to frown. just like jimin, yoongi was finding the long distance extremely difficult. especially at night when he was laying in bed alone, wishing that he had his boyfriend beside him to cuddle him but sadly that wasn't the case and jimin was the whole way back in korea wishing the same thing.

"let's go, yoongs." seokjin said, placing his hand on yoongi's shoulder once he got out of his bed, the two of them making their way off the bus. as they walked by some of their fans, they both waved before rushing inside to their dressing room, getting their hair and makeup done.

they were finished and were now standing backstage, waiting to go out and perform for their fans. performing was the one thing that managed to take yoongi's mind off of missing jimin but not for long because once it hit reality that he was performing for his fans, it all reminded him of jimin. his boyfriend who just happens to be a massive fan of them and that's when yoongi starts to miss him even more.

the adrenaline rushed through the boys veins as he jumped around stage, rapping into his mic like a bundle of energy up until they stared to sing their song spring day, which made him calm down, feeling more tired than he was at the beginning of the concert.

the song reminded him of the situation he was in. missing someone and wanting to finally seem them again but only yoongi knew the next time he'd see his boyfriend and it wasn't for another ten weeks. yoongi sometimes wished he never knew, maybe then counting down the days wouldn't make him so anxious. he wouldn't be constantly waiting for september 5th to come, instead he would be waking up each day, hoping that today he would maybe see his boyfriend. just maybe.

"thank you all for coming tonight, we had so much fun. we'll see you again soon." namjoon spoke into the mic while they all waved goodbye before they exited the stage, their bodies sweaty and their hearts beating so fast, the same as every night after they got off the stage.

yoongi didn't know what was wrong with him but all of a sudden it felt like it was too much. every night he would miss jimin but after a while he would be fine but tonight was different. tonight he just couldn't take it no more. after only four weeks, yoongi finally broke down, letting out loud sobs as he thought about his orange haired boyfriend.

"yoongi, are you okay? what's wrong? did something happen?" seokjin asked, panic drenching his voice as he wrapped his arms tightly around his best friend. he knew what was wrong with him, he just needed to ask. they all expected this to happen at one point, just not this early into tour but i guess that's what happens when you love someone so much.

"seokjin, my heart, it hurts. it really hurts. i can't breathe." yoongi cried loudly, holding on to his chest. he knew they would've thought he was being dramatic he was seriously hurting. he didn't know what to do. he craved the feeling of jimin in his arms and the feeling of the younger's plump yet soft lips against his own.

"yoongi, just breathe. you're having a panic attack, i need you to try and calm down. focus on your breathing okay? in and out, copy me."

luckily for seokjin, he knew how to handle panic attacks and what to do. he grew up with anxiety and so he was constantly taking panic attacks and anxiety attacks, which wasn't so lucky but at least now it came in handy.

no one had never seen yoongi like this so everyone left the room, except seokjin. they knew he needed his space with his best friend.

after what seemed like hours but what was really only fifteen minutes, yoongi finally calmed down, the tears coming to a halt. it was almost as if he had no tears to cry out anymore it all just stopped so suddenly but now he was feeling embarrassed. embarrassed that he cried like that in front of his members. embarrassed that he took a panic attack because of how badly he missed his boyfriend. he knew there would be people thinking he was pathetic but he wasn't. he was simply in love and sometimes love hurts.

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well that was upsetting adjfhdj

i feel like maybe this story is going a bit faster than i planned but i don't wanna drag it out because then it'll be filled with me dragging stuff along and we don't want that to happen

but anyways i hope u enjoy this chapter :)