Loving two different persons is possible, really. One of the things I thought once as a foolish act. Pa'no mangyayari yon? hindi ko rin alam. Basta ang alam ko, one of them was made by my fucking idealistic mind, and the other was from my harsh reality.

In the back of my mind, nandon si Matt, nakangiti sa'kin. But in front of me, here's Ken. Smiling or more like grinning on a daily basis.

They are different, yet all the same. I would do everything for Matt. and I might do everything for Ken as well. But we are on a different situation, different stage. I wouldn't trade the times I had with Matt for anything.

But the short times I had with Ken, the heartbreaks, the laughs, the fights -- everything dug deep within me. And in this moment, a terrible realization sinks in. A feeling I always never wanted to put into words. A feeling I can never run away from no matter what I do.

I'm harshly, deeply in love with Ken.