Happy Birthday, M

When I started writing this, I asked myself "bakit ikaw?". I asked myself why I love you.

Before you, I really don't care about these teenage love stories and had already stopped believing that these clichéd love stories exists. Love ━ what a brave concept to believe in. Believe me if I say I thought only fools would think that love conquers all, that love makes miracles happen, and that love lasts forever like in romantic movies/series. So many times I thought I had found it, but I lost it on soooo many immature occasions until I just gave up. Somehow, deep down inside, I still hoped that love would look for me.

I didn't find you the way I expected I would. You have always been there. There were no fireworks. No accidents. No coincidences. There was nothing special in the way we found each other. I guess I was looking so hard that I completely overlooked you those times. When I stopped looking for it, that was when you came into focus. Everything else disappeared, and suddenly, choosing you was the best decision I could ever make in my entire teenage life. Finally finding you amidst all the noise was simply blissful.

Mahal, corny na kung corny, tanga na kung tanga, but you know I'll always choose to love you because you are the best friend who has always been there for me when I needed a friend. You are my guard who makes me feel secure no matter how uncertain the future is for us. You are the most handsome and most loving man I know, and the love you have given me is the best kind of love I could have always wished for.

You are everything I need and I thank you for being my home where I will always find comfort. For protecting me and rescue me from all my troubles. For greeting me with your positivity whenever I have a bad day. For looking into my soul as if it's the most precious thing in the world.

Thank you for briefly showing me what love is. It may have been messy, but it was real. Thank you for giving me so many new experiences. I now truly believe that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Thank you for breaking my heart, because now I have something to write about.

You'll always hold a special place in my heart. You will always become my very first heartache, the man that gave me all the experiences. And that’s the fact that I need to accept. You are irreplaceable.

When we age a little more, and decided to part ways, live without each other and our memories fade, I will never stop remembering the love you once gave me.

I really want to be with you right now, but you know our situation. I know you would understand. You've known this was going to happen even before I knew it anyway.

Always remember that I love you so much. Mahal kita. I chose to love you 1 year ago, and I will always choose to love you even until after the day I die.

I am proud to say that the day has come where I am happy, and I hope you’re happy too. Happy 19th birthday, Luisq!

Always yours,
Pia

PS. I did get you a gift. Next time mo nalang kuhain pag pwede na.