I WANT TO BUT I CAN'T AND IT IS KILLING ME~ Chris Landon

CHRIS LANDON

REWIND TO SOME WEEKS BACK!

Annie had really been making life difficult for me, why did she have to call mom and made her come all the way here.

I thought I had outgrown the fear I had for her but it was even pretty more intense. Annie was supposed to have my back, she used to but recently it's like she is my mom's robot. She only does what mom says.

The fear I see in her eyes when she looks at my mom was intense. I wanted to call Khloe, I really want to but the witch I call a mother threw my phone out and there was no way I'd go see Khloe with her around.

I was scared she would trace me and make life difficult for Khloe, I don't want her pushed to commit suicide like Ciara did. As much as I missed her and wanted to reach out, I couldn't.

Sincerely, I didn't know when this love built up so much that it's driving me crazy but it's happening, all happening while I was incapable of acting on it.

"I heard there is this girl you are into now, have you forgotten your engagement with Annie?" Mom asked me.

Engagement like any of us wanted to, like any of us were in love. The stupid thing she made sure happen for reasons unknown to us. I don't know why I can't see Annie as anything other than a sister, if I had loved her, life would have been so easy.

"You know we are not in love and I don't know where you got the idea of me being into someone". I replied her.

"You really have grown wings! You of all people know I can break you if I want to" she threatened.

"Exactly! Which makes me wonder what sort of mother treats her son like that, what sort of mother dreams of breaking her son! Sometimes I think you are not my real mother!" I yelled at her, it was beginning to frustrate me.

Everything was beginning to annoy me! I'm sick and tired of not being able to live my life! I'm a man for goodness sake, not some locked up princess.

"Right! I can treat you however I wish, I won you" she replied me.

"I'm not some property you can own" I told her right back only for the most unexpected to happen, she slapped me right across the face.

For some reasons I went dizzy, I saw her face again but this time it was different, we weren't here but somewhere I can't seem to recognize. She slapped me on my face but she was crying, beside what I know to be a younger version of me was another boy.

I wondered who the other boy was, then she said "How could you leave your kid brother all on his own all day".

"Khloe was supposed to babysit" I told her.

What was this? Why was I seeing this? When did I have a younger brother? Did I really mention Khloe as a kid? Why was my mom's voice slightly different? And is this some kind of memory from the past?

To say I was confused was an understatement.

"Get up you twat, are you going to collapse over a mere slap?" I heard her say bringing me back to reality. The two voices were different, my mom back then and this mom right here.

Even when she hit me there was affection on her face unlike the demon before me. Whatever happened? Was this a dream?

I was sitting on the floor holding on to my head which hurt like crazy.

"I think I'm sick" I said, I wasn't exactly feeling good.

"If you are sick go to the hospital and stop creating a scene here" she replied kicking me hard in the leg and left me right there.

I wasn't only not feeling good, I think just like Khloe said, I have some kind of memory issues and should see a doctor but how would I do that in secret?

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A week passed and I kept seeing her, that other woman who was my mom, the one who looked at me warmly like a mother should. I kept seeing her mostly in my dreams, sometimes it might seem like old memories and sometimes she might be calling out to me for help.

I couldn't tell Annie since my mom now controls her like a robot, I couldn't make a call or send a text with my new phone, mom already tapped it secretly. I was dying inside of me, slowly but surely.

If that other woman was my mom, how them is this woman my mom? I don't need a spirit telling me they are different. They completely are!

"I'd be returning home today, some issues require my attention. Annie would keep an eye on you while I'm gone". That woman told us.

The joy inside of me at that moment could not be measured. I knew what I had to do immediately, get a new phone, visit Khloe and tell her everything, hoping she would understand.

"Yes mom" Annie replied her

She glared at me expecting a response and I was quick to also say "yes mom". I wasn't going to let anything make her change her mind, she just had to leave. Two weeks with her was hell already.

"Annie, remember what I told you". She told Annie who nodded slowly.

She must have threatened her again. I really feel bad for poor Annie but what can she do? The poor thing was adopted only to go through all of this.

I drove her to the airport with Annie who was quiet all through the ride. Once she was gone, it took everything in me not to shout for joy.

The moment we returned to the car, I was more than eager to speak with Annie about everything I've been dying to say.

"Annie, I've been expe...." She was quick to put her index over her lips signaling for me to keep shut.

I sighed, did she tap the car as well? What a life!
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Author's note
Right at the beginning of this book, Khloe was dreaming about Chris, now, it's Chris dreaming about someone he is guessing is his mother.

He must be confused with all of these scenes that keeps popping up in his head.

Don't you think his mom is crazy though, tapping every single thing just to keep an eye on him.

What would you do if you had such a mom, what do you this Chris should do?