now he's at the driveway faking a smile, wishing he could tell him he doesn't deserve his bestfriend.

yukhei had his car parked at a distance where he couldn't see the venue but at the same time he made sure he wasn't that far. he arrived just in time with more minutes to spare yet, he's spending it alone inside his car.

he would be lying if he'll say he wasn't hurt, that doesn't feel his heart breaking, that he's completely fine, and that he was ready give everything up. heck, all he's feeling at that moment was his heart being crumpled like paper. yukhei was surely taking all his time in the world letting his feelings out while he was alone there.

he had the door opened for air but he still stayed inside, wanting to collect his thoughts.

❝fuck,❞ he brought his hands up and wiped the tears from his eyes. the ceremony hasn't started but here he is, already crying. ❝i promised myself that i shouldn't cry.❞

❝you must love breaking promises then.❞

and to think he was alone there. turning his head to the side to see who owned the voice, that didn't help in toning down the tears falling from his eyes. ❝what are you doing here, woo?❞

jungwoo chuckled, bringing out his handkerchief and lending it to the crying man. he then crouched down by his side and helped him in wiping his tears. ❝i knew you'd take your time in going to the venue. i excused myself so i could see you here.❞

yukhei listened to him intently while sniffling, trying his very best to hold back the remaining tears that was at the verge of falling down from his eyes. after using the older's handkerchief in wiping his remaining tears, yukhei now had his attention on to his bestfriend and couldn't help but cry again.

❝yukhei..❞ jungwoo frowned. it hurt him to see someone important crying like this on his special day.

❝n-no.. i'm crying b-because..❞ with sniffling real loud, yukhei had his lips quivering as he faced the older that looked worried. ❝you look so beautiful.❞

jungwoo never knew that line could easily make him tear up. throwing his body on to the taller male, he buried his head on his shoulder and hugged him tight. he was afraid to let go. ❝you idiot, you're making me cry.❞

yukhei started to panic, pulling the older away and wiped the tears gently from his cheeks. ❝don't cry, your make up would be ruined.❞

❝but you're crying!❞

❝i won't cry anymore!❞

coming out of the car, yukhei took his keys and dipped it inside the pocket of his suit. he then closed the door and turned to face his bestfriend, staring at him with both of them having tears falling from their eyes. they looked like they were having a staring contest with tears.

❝you're still crying!❞ jungwoo pointed out.

yukhei then had his mouth agape. ❝because you're also crying!❞

the two had their brows furrowed and tried to look intimidating even though they were just waiting as to who will stop crying first. moments later, they burst out laughing at how stupid they are acting. that caused for them to stop their emotional moment and now wiped their tears from their eyes.

❝you also look great, yukhei.❞ jungwoo complimented after taking deep breaths of calming himself down.

the younger gave him a cocky smile, showing his attire for the occasion proudly by making a pose. ❝of course, i'm your bestfriend!❞

rolling his eyes, jungwoo laughed at him after playfully slapping his arm. he didn't quite get as to why yukhei said that. ❝whether you look like that or not, whatever you are or how you look, you'd still be my bestfriend.❞

after him being able to say that, jungwoo was immediately pulled in a hug. the taller male had his arms wrapped around the older's waist and secured him in his arms. with a small smile, jungwoo threw his arms to yukhei's shoulder and also hugged him back.

❝i'm glad we met.❞

that statement was too much for jungwoo, making him have a hard time breathing from holding his tears back. ❝thank you, for saving me from those kids.❞

❝no problem.❞ yukhei pulled away and gave him a small smile. ❝i was and will always be your superman, jungwoo.❞

nodding his head, jungwoo started to sob even though he did try his best to hold it back. ❝only you.❞

❝ah, woo!❞ the younger male groaned, bringing his hands up and quickly wiped the older's tears to prevent his make up from wearing off. ❝don't cry, please. you might have forgotten that you still have your wedding to attend to.❞

❝right, right.❞ the older male being told that then nodded his head, staying silent for a good moment just for his tears to be put to a half before looking up and flashing his most adorable smile to yukhei. ❝thank you.❞

the younger then used this opportunity to squish his cheeks, making him looked all puffed. ❝and about awhile ago breaking promises, you also broke one.❞

❝are we seriously talking about this?❞

❝you started it.❞

but even when the two of them broke promises they had made and agreed on when they were kids, the two grew up to accept what had finally come to be for them. although, yukhei might look like he still had a long way to go, at least he's trying and now taking small steps. jungwoo could see that and even though he's happy at his bestfriend's improvement, he still can't help but feel bad.

❝oh, right!❞ as the two were walking, jungwoo stopped his tracks and pointed a finger at the tall male who was taken aback by it. ❝your mom arrived first than you. she was complaining as to how you're taking too long to come out from your room.❞

yukhei froze from his place, looking at his bestfriend with a nervous smile. ❝i w-was just feeding m-my goldfish.❞

❝wong yukhei.❞

knowing that he couldn't escape from him, the said male let out a defeated huff. ❝fine.❞

he then started to explain everything. from sulking inside his room, crouching at a corner, and encouraging himself that he can get through this day without having his heart being broken to pieces. jungwoo listened to him intently and had a frown on his face as soon as he finished talking.

this was what he was talking about. as much as he wanted for his bestfriend to attend his very special day, he didn't want to see him suffer like this.

❝you didn't have to come.❞ lowering his head, jungwoo felt guiltier than ever.

❝it's fine. like i said, some things are just not meant to be.❞ yukhei didn't mean to make him feel bad as he told him the real reason as to why he was taking too long in preparing himself and as to why his mother got impatient. he just didn't want to keep this from his bestfriend, this was another step from accepting what has to be for them. ❝don't give me that look.❞

the situation between the two of them made jungwoo bit his lower lip from guilt. ❝yukhei, i'm sorry.❞

that apology just caused the taller male to let out a groan. moving close to him, yukhei placed a finger under the shorter male's chin and raised his head up. the about-to-be-married man looked up with his eyes holding the universe and the younger male couldn't help but admire the beauty he owned.

he was proud of having him as a bestfriend.

leaning forward, he settled the most softest kiss he can on the older's forehead, pouring all his emotions to it. ❝jungwoo, i can't miss your special day.❞

throwing his arms around his bestfriend's shoulder, jungwoo had their foreheads touched as he closed his eyes. he took deep breaths and yukhei could tell that he was holding back the sobs that are threatening to come out from his mouth.

❝i won't lie, you can already tell what i'm feeling right now.❞ yukhei told him, his voice softening at him. ❝but hey, i am finally at the point where i'm accepting the fact that i am giving you to someone who can hold you like i can.❞

those words made jungwoo whine, having yukhei to laugh at his reaction. he could see that he was trying his all to holding his tears back but this tall man just really wants to make him cry.

settling another soft kiss on top of his forehead, yukhei grabbed hold on to his bestfriend's hand started to pull him gently. ❝come on! we'd be late.❞

and the two arrived just in time, having jungwoo to retouch his natural make up, which was ruined by all their crying, and yukhei being scolded by his mother who was waiting for him by the entrance. the tall male had his hand rubbing his nape as he listen to his mother's scolding, thankful that he was speaking to their mother language for people around them not to know what she was shouting about.

when they were given the last reminder that the ceremony was going to start, yukhei was being told where he should be standing and while doing that, he gave short glances to his bestfriend that's also looking at him with a small smile. the taller male raised his fist midway up and mouthed an encouragement towards jungwoo, which only earned a chuckle from him.

when it was finally starting, the tall male went on to his place after a short walkway and making a scene that lifted the mood up. though, he got a glare from his mother.

with the piano's melody filling up the chapel, the doors opening had then caught yukhei's attention than made him turn around.

he's looking at him when he's walking down the aisle.

yukhei had his lips formed into a smile as he watched his bestfriend slowly walking with his eyes on him and also to someone that's waiting near by the altar. he didn't have to look back to see who he's looking at, yukhei knew who it was. having their memories and hearing the stories with his bestfriend and his soon to be lawfully husband, maybe doing this is probably the best choice he had made in his entire life.

with tears in his eyes, maybe doyoung does deserve his bestfriend.

❝didn't we agree not to cry?❞ jungwoo spoke as he grabbed hold on to his bestfriend's arm, holding a bouquet on his other hand.

yukhei didn't even plan on wiping his tears, he wanted for the older to see that they were tears of happiness. ❝don't remember that agreement.❞

because he really is genuinely happy for him.

❝hey,❞ still continuing their conversation as he guided his bestfriend down the aisle, yukhei tried to keep a smile while staring straight to the altar. ❝your father would have been so happy if he sees you walking down the aisle and getting committed with someone you love.❞

and he'd probably be the one to walk him down the aisle. that thought made jungwoo lower his head from the tears he couldn't hold. ❝and yours w-would be so proud seeing you staying s-strong like this.❞

finally at the end of the aisle, yukhei had come to the point where he'd finally have to let go of his bestfriend.

and watch him go to another man that could love him and hold him like he can.

he could see how bright he was smiling as he locked arms with his groom, and yukhei couldn't have been more happier with that sight. he took the last glance before turning around walking back to his seat right next to his mother while wiping the tears from his eyes.

it still was no use, the tears won't stop rolling down.

feeling a hand on his thigh, the man caught his mother giving him a small smile. that comforted him a slight bit, holding her hand and reassuring her that he'd be alright and he'd get through it soon.

he then finally gathered to look straight at the wonderful sight of his bestfriend for years finally falling into the right arms. seeing him glance behind, yukhei waved a hand for jungwoo to see that he was doing fine. the older passed him a sweet smile before having his attention back on to his ceremony.

❝yukhei, your phone is vibrating.❞ his mother's voice then grabbed his attention after a few more minutes with this ceremony on going.

fumbling his hand inside his pocket, he couldn't help but click his tongue in annoyance. ❝it's from work.❞

she tilted her head to the side. ❝you won't answer it?❞

❝later—❞ just as he was about to reject the call, he had then heard how the two grooms were already at the part where they'd exchange vows. sighing, he stood up a little as not to block the people from behind. ❝i'll go take this.❞

"will you, kim doyoung, have this man to be your husband, to live together in holy marriage?"

reaching at the back part of the chapel, right where the doors are opened for his bestfriend's entrance, he had pressed his phone on his ear as soon as he answered the call. ❝this is wong yukhei speaking.❞

"will you love him, comfort him, honor, and keep him in sickness and in health, and forsaking all others, be faithful to him as long as you both shall live?"

even with the client he is having a call with is speaking, he can't help but look at the grooms who are now starting to put rings into each other's fingers.

he bit his bottom lip and looked away, preventing himself from sniffling. ❝can you repeat that?❞

"will you, kim jungwoo, have this man to be your husband, to live together in holy marriage? will you love him,"

if it was yukhei, he surely would.

"comfort him, honor, and keep him in sickness and in health,"

there would never be a day that yukhei will leave him to suffer. he'd always be there to take care of him and keep him safe in his arms.

"and forsaking all others, be faithful to him as long as you both shall live?"

having his eyes on his bestfriend, yukhei could have sworn that jungwoo had looked back at him even for a short second. he could have seen him clearly if it wouldn't have been for his tears covering up his eyes. ❝i do.❞

and he said that with only himself hearing it.

at the same time as he let his groom wear the ring, jungwoo looked up at him with his adorable smile being displayed. he took a few more seconds of silence before he said out his answer. ❝i do.❞

everyone started to cheer after the long awaited exchange of 'i do's with some finishing a box of tissue and other (most likely doyoung's friends) whistling out and teasing the grooms. both of the now wedded couple let out laughs as they join happiness with the other.

❝you may now,❞ the man then gestured his hands for the two of them. ❝kiss your partner.❞

looking away, yukhei knew he wouldn't be able to handle it. he brought up the sleeves of his suit and started to wipe the tears that has been falling for quite a while now, just remembering that he was in a phone call with one of his clients. faking a giggle, he cleared his throat before speaking. ❝i do, i do have time later. i'll immediately drive there the moment i'm done with my business here.❞

the man then ended the call while having his back faced in front of everyone, taking deep breaths to compose and collect himself. he should be happy that this is happening, that he can now see his bestfriend being someone he loves. because his bestfriend's happiness is also his happiness. that's it, that's why he should put up a smile and start accepting this.

start moving on.

❝yukhei!❞

having his named being called then made the tall man turn around and there he saw jungwoo waving the bouquet of flowers he held while walking down the aisle, and he could also see the ring he is wearing.

giving him a look, the man shook his head and politely rejected the invitation to join the throwing of bouquet. ❝you know i'm not—❞

but jungwoo had already zoomed towards him and took a grip on to his wrist. ❝you don't really have to catch it.❞ he told with a soft laugh.

not being able to resist his bestfriend, an eye roll was the only thing he could do before joining a group of women and girls gathering in one are. jungwoo had already removed his hold in his wrist and went off standing right in front of them. yukhei purposely had himself backed out behind them, hoping that the bouquet won't go to his way or he'll actually had the urge to catch it.

❝one, two..❞

yukhei widened his eyes at how it happened opposite to his wish. the bouquet was thrown up high and all he did was follow it with his eyes, clearly having it thrown towards his way specifically. jungwoo must have known that he'd be standing at the very back, which made him throw far.

lifting his hand up, a smile was shown on yukhei's face after catching it at the same time he was being stumbled back by someone who had bumped him by accident.

❝fuck.❞ yukhei groaned in pain, being the one who had met the ground and the person bumping him laying on top.

every single one of those who witnessed it had gasped, even jungwoo ran towards his bestfriend that's now laying down the ground. he first caught his breath before taking another step closer to make sure if the younger was alright. ❝yukhei, are you—❞

he didn't mean to throw it that far, yukhei was just probably destined to catch it.

❝i'm sorry, i'm sorry,❞ the small figure that's scrambling on top of yukhei then said out countless of apologies, standing up and taking dozens of bows. ❝i'm sorry!❞

but just before yukhei could ask a question, the person then ran away out from their sights. he could tell that he was in a hurry but i actually worried him as he remembered seeing the guy cry. even his tears stained his suit.

on a good note, he caught the bouquet which he didn't even plan do get.

being helped by jungwoo, he had a goofy smile as he stood up and raised the bouquet of flowers. he thought his bestfriend would be proud at him for it but instead, he was not at ease. ❝are you okay?❞

❝i'm yukhei!❞ he tried making a joke, causing for some to laugh but his bestfriend only to frown. letting out a sigh, a nod from his head was what he gave to the older. ❝i'm fine, and i caught the bouquet.❞

❝of course, you did.❞  knowing that he's fine and not hurt was already enough for jungwoo.

❝kim doyoung!❞ the tall man then called out his bestfriend's groom, pointing the flowers at the man who stood there looking clueless as to why he was being called. ❝you better start training yourself in being a great husband for jungwoo.❞

doyoung nodded his head despite of still not understanding as to why he said that. looking at jungwoo, he could see that smile on his husband's lips.

❝because when i get married,❞ he raised the bouquet up as if he was declaring something to everyone that's there to hear it. ❝i'll be the best husband in the whole wide world!❞

jungwoo lightly smacked his bestfriend's arm, reminding him that they were still in his wedding venue yet he's causing a scene. ❝hey..❞

looking down at the male beside him, yukhei gave him a smile that told what he was feeling right now. ❝and i'll always be your bestfriend, don't forget that.❞

you know what, who said he can't take care of jungwoo even though he's married? he'll still be a call away. who said that he can't be right beside him just because he has a husband? even though they are going to be busy with work, he'll still find a way to ask his bestfriend out to watch disney movies with him. and who says he can't love him? although jungwoo is married, that still won't stop yukhei from loving him.

he's his bestfriend after all.

even if he isn't his first kiss, first boyfriend, first person to be in a date with him, and first person to ever ask him out, he'll still be the first man to ever love him.

well, aside from jungwoo's father who loved his son ever since he was still a kid but that wasn't the kind of love yukhei meant.

it'll be something he can flaunt for, being the first man to ever love jungwoo that way.

⚊ e n d ⚊

how are we doing so far?

i know this isn't the ending you guys wanted. don't get me wrong, i also miss luwoo so much. i have already thought of this ending ever since the start. but hey, at least no one died, right?

and a fun fact, this was supposed to be a chensung book. but i just really miss luwoo so much and i feel like they fit this story more.

please take good care of yourselves and if you have the time to rest, please do so. 💕