a couple of kids
finding each other
trying to weather
the storm together

finding it hard to trust
after years of pain and failure
i want to heal your heart
make you forget about her

but i'm not a therapist
and that's not my responsibility
i'm just here to love you
and if that's not enough, it's not on me

but then why do i hurt so much
everyday when i wake up in this body
hating myself, wishing i was
your first true love

a couple of adults
not really knowing what to do
just winging it all out
telling lies and saying i love you's

finding it hard to love
after so much pain and loss
what can i do to be more like her?
do you want me to make you suffer?

but i'm not her and i can never be
my intentions were good from the start
i saw a broken boy with a past like mine
and i wanted to make him happy

wanted to make you feel love
like i never felt in my life
wanted to grow old and be together
always forever, all the time

but what are good intentions
when it doesn't come across like that?
i should say the same for you
'cause you say you love me back

but your actions hurt like a bitch
and the lies make me want to cut my wrists
you say you love me, i make you happy
yet you can't even say her name

i wish good intentions were just that
and it came across all too transparent
without your heart spilling all over the table
screaming how i'm just not good enough

i hate my parents for how they made me
i hate the way i love you too
and how you forget to care about me
at times when i need it most

you say you're sorry
when you feel empty
i say i'm sorry that i'm too much
while simultaneously not being enough

i wish our love was a fairy tale
we met each other
then we lived happily ever after
but life's not fair