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Josh POV

  "What in the hell happened last night?" I said to myself as I sat up. A remote control fell from my head to my lap. I took a minute to let my eyes roam around the room. I'm definitely not in the orphanage which can be both a good thing and bad thing. Let's start with the good first. I don't have to hear Janine loud ass yelling nor Nasir annoying ass asking a million and one questions this early in the am. Now for the bad, I have no idea where the hell I am at. What if I was raped? Why the hell would the rapist give me a game controller? Unless..... Shut the hell up Josh. You over thinking shit. 

  "I see your awake. Good morning beautiful." a voice said snapping me out of my thoughts and looked in  the direction of the doorway. I saw Ryan standing there with no shirt on and some sweat pants. Jesus be a fence right now. "Um hey, hi." I said clearing my throat. It's so hard to focus right now when I'm still a little out of it.  "You know you sleep mad hard?" he said walking towards me. He leaned in to kiss me when I stopped him. Like uh what you doing? "I got a spare toothbrush for you in the bathroom for you to brush your teeth, the mouth wash is right next to it." he said as I got up and nodded my head at him. His house is extremely nice, his mother has good taste. How did I know he stayed with his parents? There were a few family photos scattered around the house as I walked through. 

  Hell he didn't even tell me where the bathroom was so how the hell did I know where I was going? "It's straight down the hall. Last door on the right. Your welcome." he yelled. Smart ass. Once I finally made it to the bathroom, I saw a toothbrush on top of a note. "Kinda figured your be either asking for this or needing it soon. We have plenty to spare." it read. Remind me to ask about this little message here when I'm finished. I began to brush my teeth and splashing water on my face. I would wash my face but I don't have a rag or anything to do allat so I guess plain water would do. Once I was finished, I saw Ryan laying down on the bed with one hand behind his head. He look so damn good like that. I decided to play it cool and slide up on him. He bit his lip as he looked at me. "There he go." he said as he wrapped his free arm around my waist. "How'd you sleep?" I asked as I kissed him. 

  "Good because I wasn't sleeping alone but I'm glad I'm woke because I like doing this." he said as he kissed me back. Those lips are something else. After about five minutes of us making out, I just stared at him. "Wassup? Why you looking at me like that?" he asked with one eyebrow raised. "It's a few things. Let's start with that little message you left under the toothbrush." I said as I glared at him. "I didn't mean anything by it. I promise." he said as I still looked at him. "You either gonna be asking for it or gonna be needing it soon?" I said with my eyebrow raised again. "I was just saying babe I'm sorry." he said as he kissed me. "Uh huh. You ain't low. The other thing is that I'm surprised that you like me." I said as he sat up a little. "What you mean?" he said as he looked at me confused. "I mean when we were at the party, I swore you and Lindsey was feeling each other. It's just unreal to me. I low key think you're settling for me since you can't get with her." I said as I looked at him. 

  Um, I think I just put my foot in my mouth because the facial expression on his face is damn sure made it clear that I did. "What?" was all he said as I got up off of him and looked at him. I was at a lost for words at the moment though I felt that needed to be said. I mean come on, why would a guy that's sexy like him want anything to do with me. It's obvious that he is into her. "Josh repeat what you just said." he said snapping me out of my thoughts. "I feel like-" "No say it just like you did the first time" he cut me off. "I low key think you're settling for me since you can't get with her." I said again. "That's complete and utter bullshit. So let me get this straight, you think I'm getting with you as some sort of back up plan because I can't have Lindsey? You're kidding me right? Right?" he said again as I sat there in silence. "So why are you still sitting there then since I can have any one I want? You're taking up space." he said as I began to tear up. (A/N:This....nvm)

  I started to get my shoes and head for the door. That shit hurt. Like I literally felt all of that. I knew I was making a mistake. As I was beginning to walk to the down the street, I felt someone grab me walk me back to his house. "Put me down." I said through tears trying to fight him. "Josh listen to me please." he said as he closed the door and carried me back to his room. I sat there crying my eyes out replaying everything he said earlier. Y'all don't know how it feels when you think you might be played or when you know for a fact that someone is settling for you, even after they have shown you that they are interested in you. I didn't even notice him pull me to him nor take my shoes off. "Josh look at me. Please stop crying and look at me." he said as he grabbed my face and forced me to look at him. 

  "It's always been you from the start. I don't know how many times I have to tell you but I guess I'll say it again. I like you a lot, like really like you. I thought that if we started out as friends first, I would get to know you better and find a way to tell you how I really felt. When you assumed that I wanted to get with Lindsey, I would've but my eyes were always on you. My mom always said that if you like someone, a friendship would be the best way to start. Of course you might've still found someone else in that space of time but I would still be here for you. I really want to see where this goes. Shit." he said as his voice cracked a little. He's telling the truth. Good thing no snot or anything came out of my nose, I don't need to be any more ugly than I already am. I wiped my face and kissed him. This kiss was different then the rest.

  This one was filled with love, belief, and happiness. Something that words couldn't really express. When we broke apart, he wiped my face and kissed my forehead. "I don't want you to think that I'm playing you so I think it's best that I show you better then tell you. Besides, I didn't want you to leave me just yet. I know you're not in a rush to get back to that orphanage that bad." he said making me laugh. "You would be right about that. Sorry about you chest." I said looking down to see it was soaked. Made his body look even more amazing to be honest. "I haven't even gotten a chance to shower yet. Where are your parents?" I asked him.  "I got some extra clothes that I think will fit you and they are out on vacation so I was wondering if you would like to stay with me for the weekend?" he asked looking at me with a hopeful look on his face. 

  "Sure but I have to shower. Like now." I said as he got up and went to his dresser. He picked out a pair of sweat pants, underwear and a t shirt. "Hold on lemme get a rag and towel for you." he said as he walked out the room. I took the moment to survey his room. It was very nice, nothing to extravagant. Definitely better then my room that's for sure. "Like what you see?" he said scaring the hell out of me. "Yeah. I'm just now noticing how nice your room is. I like it." I said as I smiled at him. "Thank you. Here's your rag and towel. Go shower big head." he said hand me the things as I walked into the bathroom.  "Shit is cold." I said as I got in the shower. I should've let it warm up first. Now I gotta sit in here and wait. Once the water was warm enough for my liking, I began to wash. As I sat under the water, I began to think to myself. "Maybe I being to guarded. I should allow myself to be loved and happy for once." I thought to myself. 

  "You OK in there? You been in here for minute." he said knocking on the door. "Yeah I'll be out soon." I said as I shut the water off and got out of the shower. Once I was fully dressed, I hung my towel and rag on the rack and headed out to the living room. I could smell food cooking so I followed the direction of the smell and saw him on the stove making Alfredo. He was really into the cooking so I think it's best not to disturb him. "I see you watching me. I'm almost done." he said before finally looking at me. I smiled at him and walked into the living room to watch some TV. I settled on Ed, Edd and Eddy. This how brought back memories. "I like this show too." he said as he came with two plates in his hand. "Thank you." I said to him. "No problem. Would you like something to drink?" he asked me as he handing me a fork.

  "Lemonade would be nice. That or water." I responded. He came back with a glass of lemonade and a ginger ale for him. I took a sip of his ginger ale as he did the same to my lemonade. "Now we even." he laughed as he sat down. Laughed as we ate and made some small talk. Once we were finished, I took our plates and washed them. Then I laid on his chest while we watched TV. Every time he laughed, his chest would vibrate. It was so weird and relaxing at the same time. Some where along the line, I cuddled up closer to him and fell asleep. I had a weird feeling in my chest but it felt so good.

This was hard for me to write. I'm finally connecting with the book.   

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