I'm doing it today... I don't know when or where but I'm doing it. nothing will stop me. I can't keep living like I have been...

This pain of abandonment is too much for me to take... people always say that you can overcome it but I don't think I can... depression is not something that people can see in me but that doesn't mean it isn't there because it is.

Right now it's just too much for me to handle... I don't think I can last another hour here on this horrible earth... the knife is right next to me as I write this... As I have been writing I have decided to do it as soon as I finish this entry...

This is the only way I can have peace. I can't "just wait" any longer.

Goodbye world...