I'm with the new family and I'm hating it... they all pretend they care but I know that they have to be faking it... nobody has ever really cared.

I guess I should tell you that it is a man, a wife, their daughter, and they have an older son... he doesn't live with them apparently. they tell me that it will be fine and that they enjoy me... should I believe them? I don't think I should...

Oh, the depression has started to cave in... now that he has betrayed me, life has gotten lower and lower...

I'm like a sinking ship that is just waiting to go under.

I do a good job of hiding it though... they don't have any idea because I don't do any of the cutting or anything like that... But it's still there... the darkness and sadness is so bad that I can't get rid of it...

There's this deep black hole in my heart...