(I would would say not edited...but I never edit so...)

Tyler's POV

I need to think. So when he would go home early it was because of his mind? When he looked like he was crying, he really was? He wears long sleeves and if not had so many bracelets on...Josh

'You left him, why would you do that??'

I quickly ran back to his room, his head in his knees and he was sobbing. I can't see his arms...

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"Josh." I finally spoke, he quickly looked up.

"Y-You came b-back." He choked out. My heart dropped, if I wasn't being such a dip crap.

'Yea, you were being a real dip crap'

Shut up

"Of course I came back. I would never leave you." I smiled and crouched down by him.

"I'm s-sorry Tyler." He whispered.

*trigger Warning for self harm...ish?*

"Josh, can I ask you something really important?" I asked, he slowly nodded. "Do you hurt yourself?"

"N-no, why d-do you a-ask?" He asked, voice cracking.

"Josh ple-" I started

"Can I take a shower please?" He asked quietly. I signed softly.

"Sure Josh." With that he got up slowly.

"T-Tyler c-Can you help me p-please?" He asked, motioning to his clothes. My cheeks flushed, but nodded anyway, then proceeded to take his shirt of. Then his pants, but I stopped after that.

"D-Do you want me to help with your boxers?" I asked him, he nodded shyly.

"P-Please don't l-look." He says as I slowly pull his boxers off, keeping my eyes closed, once I felt the floor Josh stepped out and grabbed a towel.

Dang it, I didn't get to look for ...stuff? Scars? I don't know

After I helped him he said a quick thank you then went into the bathroom.

"You c-Can leave. I-it's ok. I-I uh, I understand." He said, peeking out the door.

"I'm not leaving." I stated, he nodded and closed the door.

Josh's POV

(A/N I don't know if this is a trigger of some sorts.)

I quickly got in the shower. And just stood there for a bit. My phone playing music, it placed on the sink.

The water was hot, but not too hot. I washed my body and hair, scrubbing hard. I turned the heat a little, the steam growing .

I continued to turn the water up til it was completely hot. It scorched my skin and the steam was suffocating. I love it. I scratch at my chest, leaving red claw like marks. Speaking off red, that's the color my skin I turning. The scars on my body sting as well.

I'm becoming light headed and my breathes are shorter, but it's ok. I drench the water on my face, I scratched my face, the red claw going across my face, I think I just popped a pimple.

Yup, there goes the blood. My skin stings, it itches. I claw at it, starting from my neck.

Once I feel like I'm going to pass out I turn the water off. And looked in the mirror. The scratch marks are noticeable, and my skin still has the redness.

'I' m proud of you'

I nodded slightly and walked out the bathroom to see Tyler fast asleep on my bed in a sitting position, his back against the head board.

I smiled and changed, laying him down then laying next to him. I started to literally feel the heat radiating off of me. So I later on the floor and feel asleep.

I didn't want Tyler to be hot