I'm not dead. And y'all are about to hate me
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Josh's POV

*few weeks later*

Tyler has a speech today. I said I would go. So, I'm currently getting ready for that speech. He's scared the he will mess up, but I'll be there to make sure that doesn't happen.

Today is going to be a great day. Tyler is going to hit it so hard, I'mma fall over in my seat. He is doing some poem about cyber bullying. He is so smart and wonderful and 'just...ok stop yourself dun'

'Yea, stop yourself'

I groaned, wrong day and time and ugh.

"What do you want?!"

'Oh you know what I want.'

"The answer is no." I stated. I was not having this bull crap.

'I always get what I want.'

"Tyler is going to be so mad if I don't make it." I told him.

'Then make it quick.'

"No." With that I continued to get dressed. But today just had to change so quickly.

'You really think Tyler will care if you are there?'

"Yes, yes I do."

'Right, does Tyler know about me Josh?'

"..."

'Does he Josh?!'

"...no"

'So you get to comfort him, while you're in pain? Doesn't sound very fair.'

"So?"

'So show him'

"Show him what?"

'Show him that your weak.'

"I'm not weak."

'Then why am I still here?'

"Because you won't leave me alone!"

'Make me leave then'

"How?"

'Follow my instructions '

"What do you want me to do? "

'Go to the bathroom...'

Tyler's POV

I was pacing back and forth waiting to make a speech type thing.

"Joseph, they're ready." The tech tells me. I nod and walk out from behind the curtain. We are having a bully prevention festival and I was asked to make a monologue. I quickly agree, Josh said he would go. I walk out and look through the crowd. My mic is already attached to the side of my head so I can move freely.

Josh isn't here. Its ok, maybe he's running late.

I looked and noticed the tape set up.

"Hello everyone!" I smiled and waved, they all shouted in return. But Josh still isn't here. My mind is racing, I'm scared. "So we are here for bullying prevention week. I'm gonna to give you a little show,  that alright?"

Once again everyone shouts. My heart is racing, I wanna throw up.

Where's Josh?

"This is a line, and this line is mine..."

Josh's POV

*Trigger for blood and self harm*

My arms were dripping, and my mind was racing. But my body isn't keeping up. There is one name still on my mind.

Tyler

'Tyler hates you'

Tyler

'Tyler wants you dead'

Tyler

'You missed his monologue didn't you? Hahaha '

'No no no no, Tyler is gonna hate me'

'Too late mate, he already does'

I sat in the corner of my room, the blood still dripping from my arms. I might have gone too deep. I started rocking back and forth.

'Tyler I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.'

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I started to whisper out loud, I can feel a panic attack coming on. My door was opened and Tyler walks in.

'Tyler!'

But he's mad and tear were coming out of his eyes.

'I caused that'

He spotted me and quickly became even more mad.

"You were supposed to be there for me!" Tyler shouted, "Why weren't you there?!"

I was still in the corner rocking back and forth, my hands on my head
"I'm sorry Tyler." I whispered.

"You know I have problems, and you weren't there when I needed you." Tyler's voice cracked.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. " I repeated over and over. Tyler looked at my state, and slowly walked in my direction.

"Josh, what's wrong?" Tyler asked crouching down.

"Please don't yell, I'm sorry I'm sorry." I whispered, the panic attack rising.

"I'm not the only one with problems am I?" Tyler asked carefully.

I quickly shook his head 'no', "I'm sorry."

I was shaking now, tears were coming out.

"Josh, why didn't you tell me?" With that he got up and walked away.

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Love me:(