she chokes out a sob and sits up
looking around
staring down
for a moment
she forgets
where she is
but then she looks up
and reality
snaps her back
she leans against the wall
and brings her knees to her chest
laying her head between her legs
she watches the tears
gently fall to the ground
and sit in tiny little puddles
sniffling, she pulls her head up
and wonders
why?
why did i even start this?
why can't i just love myself?
why?