TRIGGER WARNING!! Cutting is involved
🍂Tyler🍂

Usually I would just sit at a table filled with my friends Ryan, and Patrick, but since this morning Josh said he would meet me at lunch I decided to find a corner that he wouldn't find me in. I really don't know why one of the most popular guys at school would want to talk to me. Brendon the most popular guy fucked me and he doesn't even talk to me.

Of course I have a crush on Josh, but just because I have a crush on him doesn't mean anything will ever happen. I walked around the school and found a corner with some shade in it and I could still see the table I sat at with Patrick and Ryan. I sighed and leaned against the wall taking a sip of my water.

I looked around as I closed the lid on my water. I looked back over to the table and saw Josh standing at the table. Patrick turned around and pointed towards me. I started to panic. I looked down as Josh looked up at me and smiled. I went through plans in my head on how to get away.

I quickly stood up grabbing my backpack and put my backpack on. I began to walk the opposite way with my head down. "Tyler!" Josh yelled causing multiple people to look at us. I started walking faster not really knowing where I was going. I then felt Josh wrap his arms around my waist. "I need to talk to you in private." He whispered into my ear causing shivers to shoot up my spine.

He let go of my waist and grabbed my hand pulling me into the closest bathroom. He pulled me into the biggest stall and picked me up pushing my back against the wall. "Were you trying to avoid me?" He asked with a smirk on his face.

"I just don't know why you needed to talk to me when you can text me so no one can see." I said as I tried pushing his arms off of me, but he kept a firm grip. "Because im popular enough that people don't give a shit on who I talk to." He leaned in closer to me causing me to feel his boner. "Oh now I see why we are here." He laughed and started kissing my neck.

I yelped as I wasn't use to having someone kissing or sucking on my neck. He stopped and looked at me with a smirk. "Your going to have to be quiet." He said as he continued grinding on me. "I-I'm just not use to someone kissing or s-sucking on my neck." I said as a blush appeared on my face.

"Well get use to it." He continued sucking and nipping at my neck causing me to blush more.
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Josh pulled up his pants buttoning them up. I did the same with my pants and fixed my hair. "Why did you have to leave a hickey on my neck?" I asked annoyed as he laughed. "Just something I wanted to try." I rolled my eyes and walked out the stall. "Whatever. I'm not doing the at school again. Next time just wait till after school or just jerk off."

Before I walked out of the bathroom he smacked my ass hard causing me to yelp. "We will see about that." The bell rung signaling lunch was over. Josh walked off over to a crowd. I looked at him from behind and bit his lip.
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I stood up from my seat in my last period and put everything in my backpack. I stood up and threw my backpack onto my shoulder. I walked out the class and saw Ryan walking down the hall with Brendon's arm around him. 'I thought he was dating Dallon?' I thought to myself.

I shrugged my shoulders and walked down the hallway with my head down. Your such a slut. Your so gross. My thoughts started to go. Shut up! I responded to my thoughts even though I knew they would keep going.

Josh just sees you as a piece of ass and will never like you. I felt my eyes fill with tears as I walked down the street. He can have anyone, but will never have you since your so disgusting. I cried harder. I walked over to a nearby tree and sat beside it.

I leaned backwards and pulled the hood over me crying into my hands. I know you'll feel better if you pull out the razor and bottle of pills in your backpack. I shook my head in response. Yes you will. Now grab them. I began to cry harder and ran my fingers through my hair tugging at it as I rocked back and forth.

"Hey Ty you alright?" I felt something warm touch my knee.