You sat on Iwaizumi's lap, his face in your neck. Your legs were wrapped around him and your arms were around his neck, his arms where around your waist.

"I'm sorry." You whisper quietly and slowly. He just stayed where he was, breathing deep breaths.

"Just don't ever do that again." He says, a few tears slip out of bloodshot eyes. "That scared the shit out of me." You squeezed him tight.

"I won't." You pulled your head back to look at him. His eyes were red and puffy, his face looked emotionally drained. As you leaned in, inches away from his lips, he whispered.

"[F/N], if you jumped I don't think I'd be able to live with myself." You just closed your eyes and gently pressed your lips to his. He held the back of your head with your hand while you continued to kiss him. As you sighed into the kiss, he pulled away to look at you.

"I'm in love with you." He kissed you again and again. "And I never want to lose you." You could feel your heart flutter inside your chest.

"How long have you loved me?" You ask timidly. He just leaned his head against yours and inhaled your scent.

"The first time we met." He answered. "You were in primary school with me, wearing a blue flower dress, and I saw you from across the classroom on the first day. And all I thought was 'Wow. She's amazing.' And you still are." He blushed a bit.

"How come you never said anything?" You ask, timidly. He kissed your neck softly.

"I was so shy, and hell, I never realized that I loved you until a year ago. I just assumed that it was a crush." He responded. As he pulled his head back to look at you in the eyes, you realized that you were blushing. "How do you feel?"

"I'm okay."

"I mean about me loving you."

"I-I don't know."

He stood up, held his hand out for you. You took it and pulled yourself up to his face.

"That's okay. You don't have to love me back."

"I'm just worried about Oikawa."

"Why?"

"Nothing. It's nothing."

He looked down, skeptically, at you.

"Okay."

You wrapped your arms around his neck and stood on your tip toes. You kissed his lips softly. Iwaizumi trailed his hands down to your hips, his kiss became more passionate by the second. When he pulled away, he asked an important question.

     "Can you eat some food for me?" You nodded and nuzzled into him.

     "I will."

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     Oikawa's POV

     I stared up at the sky, the sun glaring into my eyes. I hugged my bag closer to my body as I looked at her. I looked at [F/N] kissing Iwa-chan.

     "Oh." I whisper, turning away. "It's not like she loved me anyways. I'm just Oikawa. A boy who isn't the one."

     Tears burned in my eyes but I refused to cry. Instead I continued to walk to the gate. Alone.

     "Oikawa-kun!" I hear a shout. I turn around expecting one of my fan girls to appear, but all I see is [F/N] waving from the roof top. I wave back and put on a smile.

     They both walk to the door to the stairs. Once they are out of sight, I sigh and sit down on the grass.

     I close my eyes and try and think happy. But every time I do I find myself thinking about her again.

     "Oi! Shittykawa!" Iwaizumi exclaims. I stand up and laugh a little.

     "Aw! My nap time is ruined! How will I ever get my beauty sleep?" I whine. I glance at [F/N] and then back at Iwaizumi. Nothing seemed to change. There wasn't anything awkward, no lovey glances-nothing!

     "Like beauty sleep can fix that." Iwa-chan remarks.

     "So mean!" I complain.

     "Hey, hey, hey! Stop fighting! I want to get home." [F/N] says giggling. I just stare into her [E/C] eyes for what seemed like forever. "What?" She asks. I shake my head and sigh.

     "Well, it's just that, uh," I run my fingers through my hair and close my eyes. "That was the first time you laughed in a month."

     I knew it. I knew she was happy when Iwa-chan kissed her. I just wish it could have been me. Me kissing her instead, like that one night.

     "Oh, well, uh, I guess I'm happy today." She replied, rubbing her neck. I smile.

     "Well that's good for you." I say. "Can we head home now? My feet hurt." I add, making the tone lighter with my whining.

     "Yeah. I'm pretty tired." [F/N] says. Iwaizumi smiled a bit and started to walk.

     "I have to go to the library. I need to get more books for my history paper. See you both tomorrow morning?" Iwa-chan said.

     "Aw you're leaving me! Too bad! I was going to get some ice cream for you! Too late now!" I huffed, jokingly. He rolled his eyes and walked off. "Bye, Iwa-chan!"

     "Bye, guys." He said nonchalantly. [F/N] waved goodbye and walked in the opposite direction to our house.

     It was all too quiet. So, so quiet. That was until she spoke with her soft voice.

     "Remember that night when we kissed?"

     "Yeah."

     "Well I've been wondering." She paused, exhaling softly. "Do you love me?"

     I just stayed quiet. I didn't look at her. I didn't want to look at her face. I didn't want to look into her eyes. She just stopped walking after she knew that I wasn't going to speak.

     I stopped and turned around, making sure to keep my eyes to the ground. She was close enough to grab her with my hand, but I was too scared too. I don't think I could have done it. Somehow she read my expression, or maybe even my thoughts. She slowly took my hand into hers.

     I took a few steps closer, still looking down, and stood in front of her. Instead of using words, I just tilted my head and kissed her lips. This continued for a few moments before she realized that she wanted more answers. She pulled away and looked into my eyes.

     "Oikawa, how long have y-"

     "I knew it the day I met you, in kindergarten. I just looked at you and told myself that I'd be with you someday. But I don't think that will come. I want you to be happy with who you choose." I smiled and turned away.

     "Why don't you think that day will come?" She asked.

     "Because," I began, tears burning my eyes again, "I know you don't love me." She looked down at the ground and a few tears slipped out of her eyes. "I already know who you love, and that's okay. He's a good person." She stood silent, not looking at me. When I decided to let go of her hand and walk again, she spoke.

     "Who said I didn't love you?"

     This caught me off guard. Did she actually love me? She walked up behind me and turned me around. I could feel my heart stop when I looked into her eyes. They were full of hurt.

     "I almost killed myself today and my last thoughts were how sad I was hurting the people I love with my suicide. I love you and Iwaizumi so much that I wouldn't want to hurt you guys. So don't say that I don't love you, you were one of my last thoughts."

     I just stood there looking into her face.

     "You attempted suicide?" I ask, tears fell from my eyes. She nodded slowly. I felt myself reach my arms out to hug her, to embrace her. "I-I almost lost you." I whisper. She leaned into my embrace.

     "I'm sorry." She says so quietly I can barely hear her. I just held her close. I rubbed her back and I cried onto her head. After a few moments of this I pulled away and kissed her. I kissed her with as much as I could offer. She felt my passion, my gentleness, my love. When I pulled away I saw tears drip down her face. I wiped them away and kissed her again.

     I pulled away.

     "Let's go home." I say, walking with my hand holding her delicate one. The silence on the trip home spoke more then the words we wanted to say. I could feel through the air the love she had for me, but I also felt her embarrassment, her shame and her hurt. But when I got home, I would show her how much I cared for her.